Guns and Roses

Chapter 25 - Library Incident :(

Rafael's pov -

I feel anger build inside in me as I looked at her. She makes me mad, I hate how much her words fucking effects me.

I don't fucking like her, nor will I ever. She's just a fucking girl who obviously can't stop being around me. and I'm a stupid fucker for not saying anything.

She's stupid, as a fbi and a police I'm mad she loves to find ways to get herself in trouble.

Hearing her say she went in a random fucking taxi in the middle of the night made me furious, she could of fucking waited for me if her dumb ass didn't want to stay.

I turned to leave. My work here is done. I didn't want to come and see if she was in one piece but my mom was being annoying and forced me to, she stared tearing up thinking this fucker was hurt.

So I did and left. I looked down at my phone and texted my mom that she's home.

Fuck, I don't two fucks if she wasn't home. She chose to act stupid.

"Grey..." her stupidly soft voice made me stop in my tracks.  I didn't turn around and stared ahead.

"I-I'm sorry." She whispered softly. I clenched my fists. Why should she be saying sorry to me. My mom deserves an apology not me.

I'm not her boyfriend to care about her differently but as a fbi and part of the police  force I have to make sure she's safe.

A sudden thought popped in my brain. Why was she stuttering so much today. Why the fuck did she look sick. I'm sure it was the vomiting and the lack of food.

She's stupid that's what.

I gave her two boxes of donuts. Not for her dumb ass to choke on them till she vomits.

I kept walking forward not caring anymore. Fuck! I've never felt so close to a damn women or a person I'm supposed to work with for my job.

I did date couple of times but they broke up with me because 'I'm not someone to be loved with. I'm just a cold hearted beast' and so there wasn't room for dating in my life.

Shit happens but I don't think anyone would willingly spend their life with me.

I opened the car door but a small hand touched my rough big ones. I turned around and my eyes meet hers.

Fuck.

I take my hand out of her hand and stared at her with no emotion.

"Grey, you're supposed to be worried not mad bro." She said with a slight pout and punched my chest playfully.

Fuck.

I stared at her face longer than I should. Why the fuck does she want to be with me so much.

I clench my fists to not say anything. She'll fucking cry.

"I could tell you my strange conversation with the taxi driver--" she started but I cut her off.

"I don't care. Go back inside now." I said as my demeanor changed into a very demanding one.

"Grey.." her soft eyes looked at me with worry and I glared at her.

"Now Dana. Do you fucking like me?? Do want to fuck me or what???" I said.

Fuck

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Dana's pov -

I stared at him as those words left his mouth. I felt the urge to cry but I faked it and turned around.

If I face him I'll cry.

"Sorry you feel that way, I'll stop." I said and walked towards my apartment door. He kinda scared me. He was mad.

The maddest I've seen so far. Or he was harsh. One of those.

'Do you like me??' Those words gave me shivers. I'm so terrible for giving him that energy.

Atleast now I know he doesn't like me at all.

I turned around and see him staring at me with his cold dark eyes.

Fake it till you make it

I smile and wave at him. I then go inside and closed the dori immediately. I can feel tears pour down my cheek.

I'm stronger than this.

He scolded me that's why I'm crying.

I looked down at my phone and shook my thoughts away.

I just need sleep.

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'Good morning grumpy, don't pick me up today. Bye bye!!' I clicked send.

'K' he responded after awhile.

He's so dry it's very sad. Anyways, I have to send him that cuz one, he scolded me yesterday and that wasn't so nice. And two, because I have to get my meds.

I'm nervous.

"B-Bilal, my meds." I said slightly breathily. I hope he agrees. I'm feeling very sick and shaky.

I almost had two seizures today. I need my meds. "B-Bilal please." I said as tears fall down my cheek for the fifth time today.
He stared at me pissed.

"Annoying" He complained and stomped out the house in anger. I sighed and rubbed my forehead.

Does anyone in this world cares about me!

After awhile he came back and handed me the medicine with a pissed off emotion.

"Don't ever bother me again." He said and slammed his room door shut. I sighed and take three pills out this time and shove them into my mouth.

My hands were trembling.

I drink the water and laid my head back on the sofa as my breathing was still uneasy.
I should go to the library!

Yes!

I rushed out and get my outfit together and left to the library near me. Once I arrived I take a seat in one of the wooden chairs. Book!

I get up and unconsciously went to the romance section: I love romance, something I know isn't possible for me.

I pick a book and looked at the front cover. "Strawberry's and Cigarettes' I smile widely and was eager to read it already.

Suddenly the book was snatched from my hands. I heard laughter and looked up.

"Look what we have here boys, a lil towel nerd." A boy that looked like a senior said. I stood there in shock.

"Excuse me!!?? Give that back." I said bad tried to get it back but he put it in the air and I knew I couldn't get that. Just my short luck.

I clenched my fists in anger. "Give it." I said angrily and they laughed. "No." He said and threw the book back to his friends who thought this was hella funny.

"Are you bald? Let me see" another boy said and reached his hand over but I moved my head so he won't.

Seriously this is a library.

"She's kinda pretty man." Another one said laughing at me and I felt myself boil with anger.

Teens! I rolled my eyes and simply walked away from them but a sharp pain hits my head. One of them hit me with the book.

I hissed in pain.

Ow!

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Bye