secrets of the bee

i feel you in my chest

I feel you in my chest
Every kind word
Every kiss
I feel you in my chest
With the touch of your fingers
And the sound of your breathing
I feel you in my chest in so many good ways and it's amazing
Until its not
I feel you in my chest
Everytime you lie to me
I feel you in my chest
Everytime you yell
I keep asking you to like me and I feel that with everything I have
I try and try to get you to stay
Everytime you fight me to run away
I feel you
A double ended blade of
Kind and unkind words
Kind and unkind touches
I feel it all in my chest
Not my heart tho
Because as much as my brain is telling me I don't deserve the bad
My heart is sending a different message
It's telling me to hold on to the good in you
Hold on to the bare minimum of
Great sex and sweet nothings
You whisper to me when your caressing my body
An ongoing war of intoxication
Never knowing what side of you ill get in the moment
Will you worship me like a goddess
Or break me into nothing
The darkness is swallowing me whole but you will not break me
The war in my head the obsession I have for you and in a sick way Maybe I enjoy the chaos
Enjoying the chaos of unknowing
Of bare minimum
Cause if we're being honest that is all life has ever thrown at me
I feel pain in my chest
Pain from the past pain from the present and pain from the future
And all that matters is that I love you
I love that I feel you in my chest
Until I don't