secrets of the bee

questions for past lovers

1. What was it about me that made you use your fist and words to make me feel so small when my greatest gift I had to give I gave to you?

2. Was it the distance that killed us or was it the constant doubts and my fucked up trust issues?

3. Why did you target a broken young girl was it just to feel power or because you liked the fact that I didn’t love myself enough to realize my worth?

4. Why were you so quick to jump into something that you weren’t ready to start?

5. We were friends why make things complicated, why couldn’t we just hook up, why did you need my heart?

6. You gave me my greatest gift. Why can’t you see that I didn’t deserve to be hit? I was never your enemy.

7. You were a friend to me how could you hurt me? How could you scare me? How could you rape me? Why traumatize me?

8. You tricked me, you made me feel beautiful and said sunflowers made you think about me is the one on your skin because of me? Or Is it just a sick reminder of the hurt you brought to me?

9. My darling sweet boy Why am I not enough for you to be happy? what can I do to let you see I’m trying to be perfect for you? Why can’t you see me?