secrets of the bee

run

Run from me I'm broken
You laughed as if I was joking
One and done you said you can handle anything I throw at you
But that's not true because as soon as you saw my first panic attack you told me to stop over reacting
But I wasn't being dramatic
I was scared
You called me so fucking crazy
When you wouldn't stop saying cruel words and all I could do was scream
I screamed because I didn't want to say anything I'd regret
Words that would break you into a million pieces
Funny how you have no problem penetrating me with words you can't take back
I told you to run my trust issues are so bad
No baby you can trust me I'd never betray you like that
Funny All those other girls would disagree
But I can't bring that up
All women you used to betray me
All you've done is help the monster of fear and self loathing over take me
I told you you better run because I'm breaking
You said you can't let me go because you love me but love isn't suppose to make mental illness worse it's suppose to put out the fire of pain not pour gasoline on it
You need to run before I finally get the courage to break you the way you broke me
Before I break you the way everyone I've ever loved has broken me
Run away like you love to do when we are fighting run away
Just run away