Yerizabelle's Records

Entry #7

Stellar Year 3038 Month of Tessa 26th Day

Christmas was so, so fun. (Unlike last year)

I know I'm still hung up on that but what can I expect. It's definitely an unforgettable memory.

I'm so happy right now. I wish it would stay this way all the time but I know that it's impossible.

I had a fight with my brother again. He was being the entitled arrogant thing he was, again, as always. He said something along the lines of what I'm doing isn't that hard and I don't get to order him around. I think he timed it so that mother won't hear what he's talking about.

Way to ruin the nice Christmas experience. Now I can't wait for classes to start again. I want to get away from him as soon as possible. I just have to endure a few weeks.

What he said hurt me. I mean, who would want someone to say something like that to your face? No one.

I almost cried. I didn't talk to him. If I did, I think I would just burst into tears. I don't want them to see me cry. I must be strong. I must stay strong. I can't let words affect me.

That is what I wish though. What I want to do and what I ended up doing were two different  things. When my brothers left the house (they were invited by some of our neighbors to their houses), I burst into tears immediately. I wanted to scream so bad and curse him for saying that to me. But I didn't. I wouldn't want to make trouble for everybody.

I'm glad I have this journal diary. It helps me lighten my problems. It helps me forget them. I know I tend to run away but that's just how I cope. Anyway, I'm feeling better already. Though I think what he said is going to be stuck in my mind for a good couple of hours. And then I'll start thinking about it and talking to myself about it.

Writing is the best. I'll write again next time.

Yerizabelle