Bsd one shots

They know (Shin Soukoku) Pt.2

God I'm sorry if it turns out like trash i really don't want to write anything like this but I'm bored so imma put up with it and suffer also kunikidazai (really starting to really like this ship)

Slightly changed the end, new name same chapter

Also Dazai and Kunikida are like father figures to Atsushi, and Atsuhi is like a son to both Kunikida and Dazai 

⚠️ T W: mention of self-harm, cursing, suic!dal thoughts  ⚠️

If this might trigger ANYTHING AT ALL please do not read, but if some ppl do read try to enjoy

-atsushi pov-

"I have to go to the apartment complex to get something, I'll be back" I said to Akutagawa after we stoped walking to the agency

He just nodded and pulled out his phone 

I quickly walked up the stairs, got the keys from my pocket and unlocked the door

When I got inside I slammed the door and then leaned on it, I decided to lift my sleeve up and then I looked down to see all the cuts and bruises 

-I truly am pathetic, 'I do this because I feel bad for myself'. What kind of excuse is that, I do this to feel some sort of relief not because I feel bad for myself. I could give two shits about myself, I'm a mistake... the headmaster was right, everyone would be better off with me dead. I don't deserve to live- I thought to myself 

"Hey Atsushi" I heard someone say 

I pulled down my sleeve immediately and then looked up to see the person who greeted me

"D-dazai what a-are you d-doing here" I stuttered 

-god he must know something is wrong if he's here- I think to myself

"I came here with Kyoka to look for something she lost, oh and so did Kunikida" the brunette said

"Oh c-cool, um I was just um about t-to go to the a-agency with Akutagawa to show y-you some evidence" I replied trying my best not to stutter but failed miserably

"Cool what is it" he replied calmly 

"It's outside with A-Akutagawa, I'll get h-him right now" I go and walk out of the apartment, then walk down the stairs to go get Akutagawa 

One I reach him I tell him to go to my apartment because Dazai wants to know what evidence we found

He just nodded his head and he followed me to me apartment, I open the door and then close it again

"Dazai where are you" I yell (I am sorry, I forgot how to translate it to English so I just put it in Spanish)

"Atsushi and Akutagawa come over here, please" Dazai yelled from the bathroom 

The both walked towards the bathroom were they saw  Kyoka, Dazai and Kunikida, the blonde was holding something in like a towel 

Once we were in front of all three of them Kunikida started talking 

"Umm... Atsushi can I ask you something" Kunikida said

"Sure what is it" I reply

"Well have you... have you been umm" he said obviously trying to find the right words to say what he wanted to say 

I wasn't really worried with what they might say until I realized something 

-do they know what I've been doing, that would explain why Dazai and Kunikida are here and I hid most of the things I cut myself with in the bathroom (secret spot he found under a floorboard)- I thought to myself