Moonlight + Paradise (18+)

6. Ask me. Nicely.

The stupefied stare scares her. More than when he threw her on the bed just now or when he hungrily, readily positioned himself on top of her. Is he okay? Is he angry? Maybe he doesn't like making love to a virgin - oh no! But I want him to! I want him to be my first -

"Why didn't you tell me?" He finally breathed after a while, but the frowning still worries her.

"I...I didn't know how," Her cheeks feel warm. Actually, every inch of her body feels warm!

"You didn't know how?" She felt his subtle shifts and on impulse, her hips wiggled on its own - trying to find comfort by itself. "You...you didn't know..." 

"It's just not something you say during dinner..." She cuts him off because it seemed like he's having trouble understanding those words - which is oddly satisfying to watch, for some reason.

"There's before and after."

Jeez - are we really talking about this now? While he's inside of me?? "Well...I couldn't tell you then too because -"

"Because what?"

Let me speak! "Because I wanted you to kiss me!" She looks away, avoiding his glare. "If I said it, you might not want to kiss me. You might think I'd be bad at it and I don't want you to think I'd be bad at it!"

Oh, Lily - why did you have to sound like a whiny baby?? There's a few seconds of silence and she's contemplating if she should just pull herself off from him. But I can't move...we're...connected - can I even say that?? What will happen if I move?

"Was I..." She peeked from the corner of her eyes and found his deep frown. "Was I your first kiss too?"

Oh, now this, this is just embarrassing!! This is the worst -

"Doll, look at me." No. This shouldn't have happened! I shouldn't have come here - no, I shouldn't have put on this gifts for him - "Look at me, Lalisa."

What? She turned her face back to him. How...how did he know my name? Did I say it? I said...I said 'Lily'...didn't I? Was it the wine? Did the wine made me say it? That may be it...cus how else did he get that name? No one knows that name - not even Somi -

"Don't frown at me," He said. In all honesty, she wasn't aware that she was frowning. Still, she eases her expression - seeing how his glare had slowly dissipated. "I'll get harder if you pout too and it will only be worse for you." Oh?

"There seems to be a lot of things I can't do with you," She said, trying hard to maintain a straight face.

"No, baby. You can do a lot of things, trust me. I'm just saying that this may not be the best time since you're already in pain."

Oh...right. Her hips unconsciously wiggled again and it made her wince.

"You're always full of surprises, aren't you, doll?" There's a change in his whole aura as he said this. His chest straightened itself broad. A small smile curved up on his lips and she likes to think that it's an awe-filled expression. Or maybe he's laughing at me for being so stupid and naive!

"You can change your mind if you want to...I know where the exits are." She said apologetically. 

He leans down and kisses her hard. It reminds her lower region of the sensation she felt when he was kissing her neck and chest earlier, and she didn't know why her hips ache to move.

"You keep making me feel like the luckiest man in the world...do you know that?" He whispered.

"No...thanks for telling me." She can't help her little smile, feeling damn proud of herself.