The Stolen Leader 3 ; Selena's Flame

Ch 16

Trigger warning
Mention of rape

Alyssa

I was waiting for my dad.
He was coming
I could cry
I could punch things
I could smoke weed.
I could drink
I would do anything to not feel anything right now.
How the hell does a girl tell her father she was raped and abused.
How?
I reach my golden cross around my neck
" Please god help me at this time, give me strength I need right now" I pray silently.
" I here" Alessandro announced himself
I open my eyes and I saw him leaning against the door.
He was dressed casual.
Black jeans, white shirt, his hair messy yet neat, and a golden chain around his neck.
I stared at his white-blue eyes and it gave me a calming.
His and Sophia's eyes were angelic.
Beautiful.
" So what did you call me for?" Alessandro asks me with attitude.
It hurt a little due to my mental state but I can't say shit. I've been a horrible cousin and family member to everyone.

" I called you because my father is going to be very angry, and since you're his favorite" I explained
He scoffed " My help? What the hell am I supposed to do? Give him a fucking tea party?"
" Alessandro please-" I tried to make out a sentence but he interrupted me.
" Real talk? I don't owe you shit, you and your bitch sister Aria have put me though hell"
I take a deep breath " I'm sorry, okay? I am. But you have NO idea-"
" Then explain it! You have been a bitch to me and your sister has caused me to lose all my friends except Hawk"
Hawk. His friend since the second grade.
His real name is Keith but since he loved Hawks we decided to give him that nickname.

" I'm supposed to tell my father I found the person who kidnapped Adenzia, then I'm supposed to tell him I was abused by my mother and step father and I was Also Raped by him. My mother knew and she did nothing, I HAD to act a certain away and dress a certain way. my mother hated everyone here and she was jealous she couldn't have Lorenzo. And since my father and Lorenzo are Twins she got them confused and slept with the wrong one. So she hated it. I had to act horrible to please her. I Had to suffer, and I was so fucked up I had to act a certain way and then it just became my mask"  I could feel two tears coming out of my eyes.

Alessandro didn't say anything.
He just gave me a hug.
" I'm so sorry, I promise you it's going to be okay. I have absolutely no idea of what you must be feeling but I do know it's hell"
I hugged him tight.
After all this im going to take a vacation and get therapy.
I need it
I'm fucked up.
I have constant PTSD when it comes to men. Unless I'm comfortable with you I will freak out. Unless I know for a fucking fact I can trust you I will let you by me.
It breaks my heart 98% of women have been assaulted.
I am one of them.
But I'm a survivor. I will always survive.
I jumped as I heard the front door shut.
Alessandro walked to the couch and sat down.
" Thank you cousin" I whisper
He gives me a light smile.
" Alyssa!" I hear my dad shout.
I take a deep breath.
Preparing for the worst.
" Here papa" I say loud enough for him to hear.
He enters the room and rushes to hug me.
I hug him back
" Can you sit down" I gesture to the couch across from  Alessandro.
My dad looks at me confused but he does what he's told.
Thank god for small miracles.
" Papa, I found out who kidnapped Adenzia" I say slowly
" Yes?" He says
" It was mama, she kidnapped her" I say
His jaw tightens.
" Sophia and Lorenzo handled it" I say
My dad looks mad.
" We also got Fernando, because of..." my voice trails off.
I swear my heart is about to break.
My eyes start to water.
" Because what princess?" My dad suddenly says softly to me.
His anger is gone.
Just concern.
" Selena got Fernando as a gift to me" I say slowly
My dad is confused I can tell.
" Papa...Fernando used to,come into my bed every night" and with that sentence I'm crying.
I can't imagine how people tell their parents they were assaulted .
My dad doesn't ask any questions but he listens.
" Dad...he raped me, so many times for years, mom knew and she didn't do anything. I never told you because I was so scared they were going to kill me. They said they would. And I had to act a certain way and dress a certain way"
I close my eyes trying to stop my crying but it doesn't work.
It makes it worse.
" Dad I'm so sorry-"
I get interrupted by him hugging me.
He's hugging me tight, as if I was a child and I had a nightmare and he was telling me the monsters would go away.
My dad is crying.
He never cried, I've never seen him crying not once in his life.
" I'm so sorry I should have knew, you never wanted to leave when you visited"
" Daddy I'm so sorry"
He pulls away lifting my face as he stares at me.
" It's not your fault, it's not ever going to be your fault, okay?"
I nodded.
" Good" he says as he pulls me tightly in his arms.
He kisses my head.
" mia povera principessa, non avresti dovuto affrontare tutto questo. Mi dispiace di non averti potuto proteggere.  non sarà mai colpa tua, te lo prometto" he whispers
( my poor princess, you shouldn't have gone through that.I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. it's not ever going to be your fault I promise you)
I cried in his arms and he held me tightly for hours.