Enhypen oneshots

Insecure

  Sunoo has been feeling insecure nowadays, that joyful, happy and bubbly self of his has been crushed down by one thing. Unconfidence.

  Today, they were going to learn the choreography to their comeback. Sunoo sat on chair, staring at the others' fit body and he shamefully looked down onto the ground. He had always admired the other members' bodies, even when they don't show off, Sunoo will always mention it in his thoughts.

  " Alright, let's start guys! " Their choreographer clapped his hands and everyone moved into position. 

  By the time practice was over, it was midnight and the 7 boys were going back to their dorm. "Babe, what do you want for dinner? " His boyfriend and leader, Jungwon asked. " I'm not hungry, don't worry about me. " Sunoo shot him a smile, but that smile immediately disappeared when he went inside his and Jungwon's shared room.

  How can they eat more than me but still look so good? Negative thoughts flooded Sunoo's brain that he didn't even hear Heeseung calling him. " Sunoo! " Heeseung knocked on the door. " Yes? Is there something wrong, hyung? " The younger asked. " I'm just checking if you're okay, it's 2am now, you should go to sleep. We have to leave by 7am and we cannot afford to be late. " Heeseung said, and going back to his room after.

  Sunoo laid down on the bed, scrolling through instagram when he found a photo of Jay flexing his muscles. Maybe I should go to the gym tomorrow, we'll be back by 4pm anyways... Sunoo thought but was snapped out of it when Jungwon entered the room.

  " I'm so tireeeed. " Jungwon jumped onto the bed. " Go to sleep then, I'll go to bed soon. " Sunoo said, not batting an eye to Jungwon. Jungwon turned off the lights, but continued playing his phone. Halfway through, his hand accidentally touched Sunoo's thighs, but he didn't take his hand back as it's normal for them to be in this position. 

  But, Sunoo felt uncomfortable with the hand up his thigh, so he gently pushed the other's hand away which Jungwon found weird but still apologised. 

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  They had to attend a variety show, which is one of their least favourite ones. But they had no choice as they can't go against their company's orders.

  " Sunoo, it looks like you have gained weight. Did you go to the gym? " The host asked, which made Sunoo uncomfortable. " W-Well, I have no time. But I'm trying to make plans to go to the gym... " He shifted in his seat, looking down to the floor. 

  The members seeing this, tried to change the topic as fast as possible. Jungwon held Sunoo's hand for the rest of the show, caressing it to soothe him while Sunoo was just trying his hardest to not cry.

  The show ended, and Jungwon immediately went to Sunoo. " Sunoo, baby... are you okay? " The leader asked. " I'm fine, Jungwon. " Sunoo smiled. " I swear, I was 2 seconds away from punching him in the face. " Jungwon said, making Sunoo chuckle. " I'm going out later, tell Heeseung for me. Thanks. " Sunoo told the leader before walking off to use the bathroom.

  Sunoo went to the gym at 5pm and came home at... 11pm. " Hey Sunoo, I made some ramen for you. Please clean up after, good night. " Heeseung said, before going back to his room.

  Sunoo looked at the ramen. He made sure no one was around before throwing it into the rubbish bin. But he missed something.

  Niki's worried gaze.
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  Jungwon and Sunoo were on the couch and Jungwon put his hand around Sunoo's waist, but Sunoo pushed it away, feeling too insecure for anyone to be touching him.

  " Sunoo, what's wrong? You never let me touch you anymore. " Jungwon started. " Are you tired of me? Do you not love me anymore? " Jungwon got up from the couch. " Jung- " " It's fine, you're probably going to lie anyways. " Jungwon walked away.

   Sunoo scowled at his legs, negative thoughts flooding his brain. " Sunoo? " Niki who was sat at the armchair suddenly called for Sunoo, making the older snap out of his thoughts. " Leave it, Niki. Leave it. " Sunoo said.
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  " Music, start! " The choreographer said before they started dancing. Halfway through the music, it stopped. " Sunoo, what's wrong? You're missing some steps and you're off beat. " "Sorry, I wasn't trying hard enough I guess. I'll stop slacking... " Sunoo bowed and apologised.      "Alright, let's start again! "

  After they finished practicing, basically all of them barely had energy to walk. " Here Sunoo, the manager picked up some burgers for us. " Jungwon passed a packet for Sunoo. " Thanks. "

  After Sunoo made sure no one was around, he took an empty bottle and slipped it into the garbage bin along with the packet of food and walked away like nothing happened. But, he missed another thing. Niki.

  Sunoo have been doing this for 2 weeks now. Wake up, not eat, practice, not eat, practice, not eat, sleep. That was his daily routine, he was exhausted, and he dropped from 65kg to 58kg. 

  Today was the day he stop. The day he couldn't handle it anymore. They were practicing like every day, when Sunoo started seeing black dots appear around his vision but chose to ignore it which ended badly.

  He dropped.

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  " W-What happened? " Sunoo woke up, confused. " You fainted, Heeseung wanted to call the ambulance. " Sunghoon said. " Oh, we can continue now. " Sunoo got up but was quickly pushed back down by Jungwon. " You are definitely not going to practice in this condition. "

  " Why did you faint anyway? You aren't sick, you don't have a fever. Is there something wrong?" Jake asked. " No, I'm probably just dehydra- " " No! Stop lying Sunoo hyung. " Niki cut him off. "What do you mean by that? " Jungwon looked at Niki, raising an eyebrow.

   " Hyung, he hasn't been eating for almost 2 weeks! " Niki said, making Sunoo's eyes widen. "Sunoo. Is this true? " Heeseung asked, Sunoo nodded in the crook of Jungwon's neck. "Sunoo-ah, you're the most perfect human being that can ever exist, you know that? We love you just the way you are, you don't need to change a single bit for anyone. " Jungwon comforted the crying boy.

  " I'm sorry. " Sunoo apologised. " Don't be sorry. Just remember, I'll love you no matter what. "