Snakes and Shadows | Sebastian Sallow x Reader | Hogwarts Legacy Fanfiction

Chapter 3: Feelings

Your POV

I glanced down at the stack of letters that I had received over the summer. Most were from Anne and Ominis, and a couple had come from Sebastian. Anne was happy living her days in the countryside, Ominis often visited with new books that he himself procured and some that Sebastian had requested to be given to her.

Sebastian had taken me on some kind of Roller Coaster ride with his comments tonight. It was resurfacing feelings that I had worked hard to bury.

What exactly was I doing? One moment, I was fawning over the man and the next I was guilty and angry.

"He's just so-" I paused, not willing to admit things. In fear that if I let it out, I wouldn't be able to bottle it again. The knocking of the window pulled me out of my thoughts. There an owl with a bright green ribbon around its leg stood; with a letter ready for me.

The letter was from Anne, a reply to a letter I had sent her a couple days ago. Eagerly I swiped the letter open with a letter opener. Another muggle item that I seemed to keep using despite the use of magic.

Y/N,

How are you, Summer has been absolutely blistering. It's certainly taking a toll on me and some days are harder than most. But I am trudging along, and taking in every new day as a blessing.

To answer your question, I can't say I truly forgive my brother for taking our Uncle away. His actions burned a hole in my heart, deeper than anything I can ever imagine. But his displacement has also hurt me deeply. Ominis comes by often to tell me how he is, and with each passing day I mourn what we once had.

Perhaps this year, I will be willing to talk to my brother again. My health declines more and more, and I can't bear the thought of what will happen when Sebastian truly loses me too. I think it would do him good to have his friends back. I cannot speak for you, Y/N, But if what Ominis has told me is correct, you and Sebastian were certainly close and you have been distancing yourself as of late.

Be it my dying wish, but I think it would be great to get Sebastian back on his feet. With you and Ominis by his side. I know he's suffering greatly, and I can tell the distance is excruciating for him. But perhaps, we both can find a little room in our hearts to forgive him.

Even by a little

Sincerely yours,

Anne Sallow

My guilty heart spun circles in my chest. I knew how I was acting, somehow this letter was all I needed to go back to pining for him. But I also know how I looked, the distance I had put wasn't entirely his fault.

I was distancing myself to an extent, my new role was mainly at fault. I definitely needed to talk to Sebastian, to set things right. Apologize for my own actions, but also... I needed to voice my own concerns for his past behavior. I needed to start putting my relationships at the forefront instead.

But hearing my friends voice their concerns, how could I have let a whole academic year pass without really doing anything? Like right now, I would have been hidden away at the library or went to the Map chamber to discuss plans with the rest of the keepers.

I felt lost, there was such a heavy responsibility on my shoulders, one that stood at the forefront of my mind constantly.

Oh... What do I do, Professor Fig?

"Don't forget not to neglect your friends, they can be powerful allies" I murmured, remembering something he had told me a long time ago.

Great, I was doing a bang old job at that wasn't I? They all feel like I've been neglecting them. But I promised them I would make an effort and I wanted to live a little, so why not start tonight?