Hayley atwell one shots

vent sorry (dont have to read)

Hey guys! So I know I haven't been updating at al in the past few months so here's why. Starting end July somewhere I started getting panic attacks. Like really bad ones. For those who don't know what panic attacks are they're basically an over reaction of the brain to nothing in my case but with other people there's usually a reason as to why they're panicking. Panic attacks can have a lot of different symptoms but for my I can't talk or move and have it extremely hard to breath, my hand are shaking, my eyes are closed and I can't think, i'm screaming in fear and I get this extreme feeling of dread and fear and anxiousness. Panic attacks are terrifying and they're definitely not easy to look at and it breaks my heart when I see my friends crying out of worry and people around me looking at me with pity in their eyes and not knowing what to do. I have had episodes in where I had up too 4 attacks a day and it's unimaginably exhausting. I'm currently in multiple kinds of therapies but nobody seems to be able to tell me why the fuck this keeps happening to me. I know this isn't really an excuse as to why I haven't been updating but you know I needed someone to vent to so you can definitely just not read this it's fine but you know i'll definitely try to update more often and more consistently. I hope you can understand and I love you guys!! <333

-M