SOUR , m. sturniolo ✓

vi. enough for you

matt,

this one isn't exactly directed at you.

since you left, i've had no one to talk to. no one to vent my insecurities to. no one to tell me that it's all going to be okay.

you treated me so well in the beginning. what happened?

what happened that towards the end, you stopped caring? you stopped complimenting me. you started distancing yourself. 

and i made the mistake of holding on. i clung to you like lint on a sweater.

i was stupid, emotional, and obsessive. i craved the attention that i used to get. and i never knew why i stopped getting it.

i probably sound so crazy. i sound so clingy and toxic. but that's just me. i needed you. and you weren't there.

i loved you too much. too much to be used and then tossed away like how you left me. 

i'm right where you left me. dusting, crying, wondering what the fuck i did wrong. what was so bad that i just made you leave the second you found someone else. was i boring? 

 i'm not writing for your sympathy, matt

i just want the part of myself back that i gave to you. 

the part that opened up to you about my flaws and my insecurities and my raw feelings.

the part that loved you.

okay, i lied. this one is directed at you.

because i just wanted to be enough for you. and apparently i wasn't. and i don't think anyone ever will. even her.

sincerely,

celeste.