3AM thoughts :)

haha I'm dead

What's up bitches,bros and non binary hoes I'm back cause I'm bored but basically

Lemme spill some info
Basically because of how trashy my education system is✨ I have my finals that will decide my grade to get in a good college (junior and senior year for u Americans 🤠)

So during this entire shitty month of depression, anxiety and mental breakdowns all for 5 papers I found a chance to beg my sisters for the password

Yes you heard me right password ✨ I have app lock on basically all my apps and games and socials cause my sisters faithfully believe that I have no self control and I am addicted to this device we call phone.

So I can barely access my phone and rip k-pop 😔I can't keep up with everyones comebacks since no more Twitter but I did get to see txt and onlyoneof's comeback and y'all...

DEVIL BY THE WINDOW IS SO FUCKING GOOD (go stream🤡)

Also stream SeOul drift cause my boys worked really hard and they deserve a lot more popularity than they have like so much more I love them so much istg😭✋ (mill is my bias🤠✨)

Anyways so

My exams started on 20th of Feb and so far so good cause only three papers occurred and they were french, English and science and those three are the good subjects so I'm not dying much🤠 and the next paper is social science so like I'm confident about it✨ and then...

It's maths🤡 GOD I HATE THAT STUPID SON OF A BITCH SUBJECT CAUSE ITS SHIT AND I HOPE I NEVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT CAUSE I DONT THINK I CAN PROVE THAT A TRIANGLE IS A FUCKING TRIANGLE ANYMORE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Well that was my rant on maths cause I despise it.

Oh and after our board exams our school is taking us on a trip somewhere for 2 days and they used the word excursion to make it sound educational 🤠 Educational my ass ik someone is def gonna sneak alcohol in 😭✋ (that also includes my bestfriend cause ik that hoe💀)

Another tea

We had our farewell- basically our juniors entertaining us cause we're leaving the school so our batch decide to rent an entire restaurant out for ourselves (this happened on 30th jan) and istg I don't want to go anywhere with my classmates in private anywhere. All the tables had couples cuddling and shit like there was only a closed off booth area where I could see only the single people of the world🤠 and so we are we had fun and then one of my class mates was like 'hey we're gonna go watch this movie do you wanna come' and I was like no cause I had made plans with my friends already AND I AM SO GLAD I DID NOT GO BECAUSE MY MALE FRIEND TOLD ME EVERYONE WAS MAKING OUT AND INTO EACH OTHERS FACES THE ENTIRE MOVIE AND THEY HEARD MOANS also someone had sex but idk who🤡 teenagers😀 and he tried to record it but it was too dark. This hoe just wants free porn💀

So lemme tell yall bout my childhood friend 🤠I have this guy basically I've been friends with him since kindergarten we were very close.

And like we went to the same school even and were in the same class and I treated him like a homie like a brother like one of my bestfriends every till 7th grade rolled around and I found out he's liked me since kindergarten 🗿 I was so sad because I knew I can't be friends with him the same because he would confess and I would have to break a good frisendship. So then the oh forsaken pandemic roles around and he tells my bestfriend that he was over me and we could be normal friends again and I was so happy. BUT THEN WE HAD TO GO TO SCHOOL AND THEN HE REGAINED HIS CRUSH HE EVEN KNEW THAT I WAS DATING SOMEONE like I was trying to hide it cause my friend kept on teasing me but he was like dw I already know and bro😭 I could see it in his eyes that he was hurt because lemme tell you the whole reason he gained a crush on this bitch

Basically when we were in kindergarten I had this dude a year older who I was super attached too let's call him soy sauce. So I would throw a fit when he wasn't near me and would get really bad and I used to say shit like ' I'm only going to have him as my husband no one else ' but then soy sauce left😀🏃💨 and I was upset so I took my other guy friend(him) and became attached to him cause childhood me had separation anxiety ✨

So because he sorta resembled soy sauce I told him 'im only going to marry you' so ig his heart skipped a beat or whatever tf cause he now has a super huge crush on me which is very obvi

So at the restaurant we went down to click pictures cause my parents know him and they were like oh how is he? Blah blah blah take a picture. So we went downstairs 🤠 from the first floor to the ground to click pictures at a good spot and that's fine and all but upstairs 🤠 there's this another dude (who I rejected but that's a different story💀) he sparked rumours that me and this guy were dating BECAUSE WE WENT DOWNSTAIRS TO CLICK PICTURES TF 😃😃 so like everyone can date and shit but the second I was to take pictures with my childhood friend it's like I'm dating him😃🔪

But yeah anyways I didn't talk to him for a few weeks mainly cause he won't start a convo and I'm not going out of my way to make one so yeah but then we're back to normal now but I've realised this bitch is gonna confess soon like I can feel it so yk what I did😃 I asked my guy friend(the one that went to the movies) that I'm gonna pretend like I have a crush on him cause I don't want to be rude and say ur not my type🤠

And at first he was doubtful if I could use it but then I reminded him that I'm gay and he's nowhere close to my type and that I'd rather be dating a girl but I can't reveal my sexuality to people I don't trust much So he was like okay and so we have the current situation of waiting for him to confess😃

Fyi my standards are Lee Felix

LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN THIS FINE MAN UGH NO ONE CAN BEAT HIM HES SO FINE