straight friend convos // nischa + chat fic //

make me forget you

dear diary,

day one at high school

i have already given up on being pretty, all the dudes here are either terribly ugly or the straightest, most homophobic idiotic bitches EVER

i already have heard so many comments about me (mostly about my painted nails) and they're not very good 

dear diary, 

day two at high school

do you think it's not too early to change schools?

the only good thing about this stupid place is the choir i joined, and even that is ruined by an ugly redhead named Ocean (of course she's a capricorn)

theres one guy there who is very pretty, but he hangs out with THOSE boys so hes out of the question

dear diary,

day four at high school

sorry i didnt write yesterday

dear diary,

day seven at high school

checked my grades for now, A in Literature and D's in everything else (i mightve seen a C in there somewhere?) 

cute boy is an asshole.

dear diary,

day eight of high school

dive deeper

dear diary,

day twenty two of high school

i think the "magic" of being new at high school ended at around day twelve. parents dont know yet. 

im not telling anybody about the psychical bullying. if anyone asks, it was just teasing. i don't want more problems.

p.s the boys are kind of weak for their size

dear diary,

day wtf am i doing of high school

im not new anymore. 

dear diary,

mischa (the pretty boy) has started introducing everybody to his fiancé talia. im happy for him, but i wish i was happy for us

dear diary,

 i wish i was a girl sometimes. i wouldnt even be looked at as weird for liking men then. i could do everything and anything.

except for walking home alone at night

dear diary,

high school isnt my favorite place to be right now, but the choir is going to be performing at our local fall fair, so that's good.

dear diary,

the performance went well, but of course Ocean embarrassed us by publicly stating we got second place when we were the only choir in competition for our last time

remind me why im friends with this annoying ginger 

dear diary, 

karmas a bitch. ocean tackled me to the ground when i wasnt looking. god hates me.

dear diary,

studying and listening to mitski as of now! the boys at highschool have been eh so far, the beating up has actually been less than normal which is actually really good

less slurs = better mental health

mischa invited himself over today to study for a couple hours and he chews on his pencil. highly unsanitary but also highly adorable. 

dear diary,

i feel like some dudes think since im gay, i'll just fall in love with any dude i see

wrong, i only fall in love with any HOT dude i see

dear diary,

are my emotions to be played with? why shalt thou tease me with such elegance?

i'm so sorry for that.

dear diary, 

i drew this really pretty picture of a cat in algebra 12 and mischa looked at it and said it was really cute and i think i just exploded

and of course it was on homework fuck

dear diary,

you know, my grades are better. mostly b's and c's, but still an A in Literature

dear diary,

we went to the local fair again, this time a spring one. mischas hand brushed mine omfg AHHHHHH

dear diary,

highschool actually isn't that bad. its also ending in one to two months.

(note: it took around 7 months to realize that)

dear diary,

OCEAN INSULTED MY OUTFIT I ACTUALLY TRIED OKAY

dear diary,

mischa broke up with talia.

wtf-

dear diary,

im going on a date with mischa.

on saturday.

IM GOING ON A DATE.

WITH MISCHA.