𝐀𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏

Pain

It has been 3 years since you left me on my own.  I'm the reason and I should have never left you. I feel like I'm just a mistake, like I shouldn't have been here, Why did you leave me, why didn't you take me with you or at least wish me goodbye... I miss you... I still do, I can't do this any longer. I can't without you. I wish you never left.

It has been 2 years since her mother's death. Marie a very kind, loving woman a great mother and wife, but everything fell apart when her husband demanded  a divorce, his reason was the common "You made me do this." Lucas who was Anna's father, was in a relationship with another woman for almost 9 months and blamed it on Anna's mom.

It took Marie months to speak again, she did not move around or even eat, she'd constantly cry everyday as well as shouting at Anna, telling Anna how much she hated her dad and wished she'd never meet him. Anna tried to console her Mom and fed her, she took care of her Mom. Marie even hurt herself by using a kitchen knife, cutting herself really badly but luckily Anna was near, she asked the neighbors to call the ambulance and Marie was treated.

Anna always tried to help her mom heal from her pain, she read stories to her, and watched movies but, her mom never payed attention, she was very depressed and couldn't think about anything else. She tried her best to make her mom stay but, with all the effort she put in, it couldn't heal her mothers misery, and sadly Marie passed away on the 31 October 2022.

Back story

It was a very cold day, but it wasn't too cold. Marie was getting ready to take a walk after the rain stopped since her therapist advised that fresh air would help her clear her head as well as improve her health. As Marie got her clothes ready she decided to check her drawers for her earrings, instead of finding her earrings she found pictures of her ex husband and that woman next to him, in the pictures she could tell how close they were, with the pictures came a envelope, without hesitation she opened the envelope and saw that there was a letter, she then started reading the letter slowly, feeling a huge lump on her throat as she tried to keep herself composed.

Dear Susan

I've missed you so much, I can't wait to meet you this summer. I can't wait to get out of this hell hole, this woman keeps on bothering me and I'm tired of her. She keeps asking about me and acting like a good wife, I don't like pretending that I love her, it's annoying. She even smells of spices, I just don't want to be around her. Anyway I'll see you soon dear then I'll divorce her leave her and come to you. I'll buy you that dress you always wanted, wait for me, and don't be mad, I know you've waited for so long but at least we can be together finally.

Stay safe and I'll see you soon beautiful.

Love Lucas

Marie began crying and couldn't hold her tears, she felt deeply hurt by this, how could he do that, after all the love she gave him, the sacrifices, the pain, she felt stupid and disgusted at him but, mostly disgusted at herself. She started to act on her impulses which was something that should have never happened. She didn't want to live anymore, with this , she couldn't bear to see this, she wanted this to all be fake, she wished it was just all a dream, or just a bad memory.

She ran up to the bathroom almost tripping on the stairs and crouched towards her cupboard, she quickly opened the draws until she found it , the sleeping pills that the doctors warned her not to use for overdosing as it could kill her. She knew what she was doing but, she shouldn't have done it. She wasn't in her right mind. She couldn't bare the truth, her heart could never take that pain ever.