𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 ? ~ 𝐊𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐌𝐛𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞̀

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𝐈𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐚'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

"What were you thinking Irina? That I will marry you and that we are going to be a happy family?We are 18 years old for god sake."

He was upset.A tear rolled down my cheek.

"You know what Kylian?You are such an ass.First,you are getting me pregnant and know you are breaking up with me?Last time I checked YOU were the one that refused to put a condom on."

I stare at him.As soon as I finished my sentence he giggled.

"Seriously,you were the one who was begging me to cum inside you."

My eyes wide open.I couldn't believe he just said that.I mean,that was Kylian.Kylian is an ass,hoe and whatever the fuck you want but He was by my side throughout my pregnancy, giving me love and care,and now he acts like he doesn't even care.

"What the actual fuck?I was horny and I felt like it.Are you being serious right now?Is this a joke to you?Because you acting like you don't even care and one month ago you were saying to me how much you love me and you are not going to leave me.I'm the mother of your children Kylian,you can't treat me like shit right after I gave birth to your children."

He avoided my gaze throughout the conversation. Hearing my words, he let out a gasp.

"Irina i said that I love you because i fucking do.As you said,you are the mother of my children.What kind of father would I be if I didn't take care of you when you were pregnant?I love you more than anything else in the world and so do our children.But I also love my career,all I can see now is my future.I already have a World Cup in my hands,the world is counting on me.You know how much I love football."

Before he continues he takes a deep breath.I watch his every move intently.

"And besides that,people sometimes fall out of love.I don't want to put myself through this process.I don't like commitments even though I committed to you forever.I was in love with you Irina,I really was,but you can't give me anything more than sex because I don't want you to give me more.I've known you for two years.Although we never got into a formal relationship you always felt like home to me.We communicated,we loved each other, there was passion between us.But this passion is no longer there for me.Think about it,two years in a row we are just fucking like dogs.We couldn't do anything else.We were children,we are children.I don't want to get married yet,I didn't even want to have kids and yes,you're right I should have been careful.You are 17 years old baby,you still have so much to live. You just got the university which it was your dream since you were in elementary school.Live your life,I'll be by your side I promise.I will always be by your side.Just not as your partner."

My tears right now could have made a lake. I sit next to him on the couch and cry softly.It hurts,It hurts so much.I feel his gaze on me while i was looking at the beautiful view outside the window.He pulls me closer to him as he holds me in his arms tightly.Please Kylian,don't leave me.

A few minutes later,through my sobs,I found the courage to speak.

"While I was pregnant,you were fucking with other girls too,didn't you?"

"Irina...I-I"

He didn't know what to say,but he didn't have to.

"Why was I never enough for you?"

I acted like a crybaby.No Irina,you are strong. You don't need anyone.Even if you are a desperate 17 year old girl who just gave birth to the children of a selfish man who doesn't even care about his family you have to show that you are an independent woman,you have to show superiority and dignity.You have two angels now to raise.You have obligations.Step by step you will become the best mom in the world.

𝟓 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐑

I never got over that day.But it was meant to happen.And now look at me,5 years later happier than ever living my life.Me and Kylian kept a good relationship after that day,but typical.The truth is,I never got over him.Even though he clearly told me that he is not in love with me, I was crazy about him.I haven't meet him since that day.Because of his job he doesn't have the possibility to visit his children often.After my breakup with Kylian,I moved in London with my two angels of course.Kylian's parents visit us to London often.Every 3 months they used to take Freya and Mike back to Paris with them for two weeks and stay with their dad.Of course,that it has been discontinued for the past two years for a reason I have never understood.For the last two years the children go to Paris twice a year for a month.They complain that they don't see their dad but I wish I could do something about it.By the way,It's been a year since I graduated.I finally got my law degree.I'm officially a lawyer.I recently took on a case with a footballer.It's nothing exciting he just wants me to help him with his transfer to Manchester United.His name is Marcus Rashford.He is a different type of fine but I don't date my clients.But there are exceptions;).

Today is a big day.I have an appointment in an hour with Marcus and the chairman of the Manchester United club.Then I have to pack my bags and Freya's and Mike's because we're going to Paris in like three days.Yes,I'm going to meet him after 5 years but I don't feel anxious or excited.I don't even care at all.If you ask me,I wouldn't go back to Paris.But since my babies' birthday are in four days and their busy dad can't come to London,Kylian himself organized a huge party for his children's fifth birthdays.

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𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨 𝐲'𝐚𝐥𝐥.𝐒𝐨𝐨𝐨𝐨𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫.𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭.𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤.𝐈 𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐄𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐮 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝...

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