Alpha Nasser

Chapter 30: try to begin a new life

The darkness of the night only seemed to amplify my feelings of loneliness and despair. The streets were empty, and there was no one to turn to. I tried to shake off my negative thoughts and focus on something positive, but it was hard. All I could think about was the harsh treatment I had received from the girls at the training field and the picture of Alpha with another girl. It was too much for me to handle.

I tried to get comfortable in the back seat of my car, but it was no use. My body was sore from all the stress and tension of the past few days. As I lay there in the darkness, my mind began to race with all the memories of Alpha and the other girls at the training field.

Why did he have to do this to me? I thought. I gave him everything, and yet he still chose to be with someone else. The thought of him with another woman made me sick to my stomach.

My body ached, and I longed for the softness of a bed. I pulled my jacket tighter around me, trying to ward off the chill in the air. As I lay there, staring up at the dark sky, my mind was consumed with thoughts of Alpha and everything that had happened. I wondered if I would ever be able to escape the pain that had engulfed me. The stars seemed to twinkle mockingly at me, as if they too were in on the cruel joke that was my life.

I tried to push the thoughts out of my mind and focus on getting some rest, but it was no use. Every sound and movement outside my car made me jump, and my heart was pounding with fear.

As the hours ticked by, I began to feel more and more alone and desperate. I didn't know what to do or where to go. I felt like I had lost everything, and that there was no hope for me.

Eventually, the exhaustion caught up with me and I drifted off to sleep, but it was a fitful and uneasy rest. I knew that when I woke up, I would still be alone and lost, with no idea what to do next.

The night seemed to drag on, and I struggled to get any sleep. The seat was hard, and my back ached. I shifted my position, but it didn't help much. All I could do was wait for the night to end, and for the sun to rise once again.

I did not know when was the time I lost consciousness in the dream.

As the first rays of sunlight appeared on the horizon, I knew that it was time to get up and face the day. I took a deep breath and tried to shake off my feelings of despair. I knew that I couldn't give up now, that I had to keep moving forward. I saw a flashlight shining through the windshield. A security guard was outside my car, rapping his knuckles against the glass. "You can't park here," he said gruffly. "Move along now."

I was disoriented and groggy, my body aching from sleeping in such an uncomfortable position. With a heavy heart, I turned on the ignition and drove away, leaving behind the solitude and the sense of freedom that had briefly offered me some solace. As I drove, the weight of my situation hit me like a ton of bricks. I had nowhere to go, no one to turn to. The world felt like a cruel, unforgiving place.

After driving for what felt like an eternity, I found myself outside the apartment complex where I had once lived with my former roommate, Cathy. I hesitated for a moment, wondering if I should even try to reach out to her. But desperation won out, and I parked my car and went up to her door, heart pounding in my chest.

I arrived at the apartment where Cathy and I used to live. As I walked towards the door, I felt a wave of emotions wash over me. Memories of our happy times together flooded my mind. But as I opened the door, reality hit me like a ton of bricks. The place was empty, all of Cathy's belongings were gone. She had moved out, leaving me behind without any notice.

I couldn't believe it. Cathy was my best friend, we had been through so much together. I felt betrayed and abandoned. It was as if everyone was leaving me behind. My world was falling apart and I had no one to turn to.

Feeling lost and helpless, I sat down on the floor and started to cry. Tears streamed down my face as I tried to process everything that had happened. I felt like a failure, like I had nothing left to hold onto.

As the day went on, I tried to distract myself by cleaning the apartment and packing up my things. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't shake off the overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness.

As the sun set and the day turned into night, I found myself sitting in the empty apartment, feeling more alone than ever. I wished that things could go back to the way they were, but deep down I knew that was impossible.

With a heavy heart, I drifted off to sleep, knowing that tomorrow would be another day of uncertainty and pain.