The Way We Fell

S K A T E

 WANT YOU TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M THE ONLY GIRL IN THE WORLD

♠️ Elias ♠️

Google Search: 

How do you grovel ?

My eyes scan the two million and one hundred forty thousand results that come up.

"To behave towards someone in a way that shows you are small and unimportant." I read aloud to myself.

The fuck ?

Can I just give her two million and one hundred forty thousand dollars instead.

No Rose didn't seem like the kind of girl who's forgiveness could be bought. I would have to put in the work.

Phrases to say to people when you are trying to grovel ?

What is bothering you ? 

How can I help ease your hurt ? 

Will you forgive me ?

Fuck no. This isn't happening.

I wasn't saying any of this bullshit. 

I'll figure out a way to grovel without burying my pride in the soil by my nonna.

May she rest in peace. 

I pushed myself off the counter in my kitchen and slammed my laptop shut. I got to get ready this is looking to be a shit ton of work.

I walk back to my bedroom while speed dialing Cam and JT since i'm going to need their help. 

✨ Adeline ✨

Why can't every man be like Leonardo DiCaprio ? 

I mean he's a gentleman and he's so good looking and he's an amazing actor but I guess a lot of men these days are since they can kiss you and look into your eyes and whisper sweet nothings and then turn around and kiss blonde long legged girls.

But anyways!

It's Saturday and I haven't willed myself to move off my couch except to use the bathroom and grab a snack.

My dad isn't home thankfully since it's one of those weekends he disappears and doesn't come back until later in the week.

So i've had the house to myself and I would be enjoying it maybe even invite Kenna over if I wasn't a complete blubbering mess.

Every time I think i'm okay I remember how all the events that played out, our kiss, then his kiss with another girl, the party. It all plays out like a movie and by the end of it and i'm sniffling and trying to suffocate myself with a pillow. 

The worst thing is I feel bad about what I said to him. I was so mad that I became a mean person and that's not who I am but he made me become something i'm not. He hurt me so bad I did something I try to never do...hurt someone else.

That's why I vowed never to talk or converse with Elias King ever again. I also swore on my books and that's pretty big. 

I paused the movie I was watching and decided it was probably time to get up and do something with my life. 

I lifted the covers off the couch and put on my fluffy slippers and got to work.

 ♡ ♡ ♡

I cleaned the entire house top to bottom, I scrubbed down the bathroom and washed all the sheets in my living room and deep cleaned the kitchen. I dusted and mopped every inch of my house while also showering and shaving every inch of my body and completing two pages worth of notes for each subject and all my homework that was due in the next two weeks.