Accidental [ Part 2 ][ BoyxBoy]

Chapter Five

-Raquel-

I woke up to the sound of music blaring from down stairs and shaking everything in the room. I groaned. I was more tired than i realized, more drained than i thought a breakup could every make me.

The blinking red numbers on the clock caught my attention read ten Twenty.

I had been sleep a few hours already and i was hoping to sleep a few more. Vibrating on my bed caught my attention. You know i was tired. It wasn't even the music from downstairs that woke me up, it was my phone. I reached out and grabbed it, my voice muffled by the pillow. " hello?"

"Raquel." It was my mother. " so, Dante's here, and i thought maybe you would be with him but no. He arrived at my doorstep, with Anthony. What happened?"

" mom-" I groaned.

" don't mom me! Tell me what you did to him?"

My body jerked up, heated. " Why is it that you automatically assumed it was my fault? I didn't do anything wrong. All i did was tell him i wasn't going to entertain his insecurities."

" insecurities about what?"

" about our-" I paused. Me and her had never really had a conversation about me being gay. We nsort of just dance around it. She didn't act like it bothered her and i was pretty sure it didn't but we never got a chance to sit down and take our time on the subject. " about our relationship. He doesn't trust me, ma' , and sincewe ot together i haven't done anything that would make him second guess us or my loyalty. It's been this way since the begining i just thought that if i stayed faithful that he would eventually go away but, it's only gotten worse."

 My mother sighed. " You know, your father he- he was a good man."

I sighed myself. " you've told me this all before ma'-"

" no, i haven't, so just shut up and listen." She began to sound choked up at the thought of whatever it was that she was about to tell me. " I loved your father. He meant more to me than life its self and i guess i always knew something was different with him. I was too blinded by my feelings though,  to see the signs. I called myself stupid for years after he left, you know? But when i look back i wasn't stupid just- i just wanted it to work."

" ma' what are you saying?"I asked quietly.

I already knew was she was saying though. I didn't know why i asked. I guess i just needed to hear her say it herself to be sure. My father?

She had never talked about him, maybe once or twice when i was little but that was it. I had never seen a picture, never heard anything about him. Why all of a sudden now was she finding it in her heart to tell me this?

" honey, your father was gay. He had this guy who he said was his friend but it just didn't add up. He was always at our house, he was there for the birth of my children. It just wasn't right. And then one night, i'll never forget it, he came home beat up and bruised. I didn't know what was wrong, he wouldn't tell me. I cried while he packed his bags. I pulled things from him, screamed at him to tell me what happened but he wouldn't. He left. And then two weeks later i get a call from Tom telling me how sorry he is.

Your father and Tom decided that it would be a good idea to tell Tom's family that they were gay and in love. Tom had six brothers and all of them joined in in the ass kicking that was handed to them. He told me, and then he hung up. I never heard from him again, always wondering and wishing. " She sniffled. " what i'm trying to say is that your father really loved Tom, because not even i or his children could stop him from being with him.

Now, granted he shouldn't have left him children, i was happy that he was happy. And if you really love Dante like you say you do, don't let any stubborness, any girls, any college problems, or any flings get in the way. If you wasnt Dante then you'll help him through his insecurities, not leave him alone with them. "

" so, " i fiddled around with the covers on the bed. " you think i should talk to him?"

" i do. I'm not telling you to grovel and beg for forgivness for something you didn't do, but just simply talk to him. Raven told me what she said to you and she was right about alot of things but the most important thing she was right about was that you two love eachother."

She was right, i guess.

I was in shock by what she had told me about my father. Too in shock to hang up the phone and call Dante. What i really needed was to just think.

I had time to figure out whether or not i liked girls and boys or just boys. Was Raven right about me using India to try and hold on to a piece of who i used to be?

What i didn't have a lot of time to figure out though was what to do about Dante. He had my head spinning to the point where it was to much. I just wanted it all to be over. Having himback in my arms was all i really wanted.

Keys clinking together at the door caught my attention and i told my mother that i loved her and that i would call her another day. I also told her that she didn't need to worry about me and Dante and that i would figure something out soon. Very soon.

I sat up, flicking on the lap that sat at my bed side and watched the door as it slowly creaked open and in stepped my room mate. I chuckled. I thought my roommate would be Garret or even Trey, i guess a part of me was dissapointed at the fact that it wasn't. As the days went on i wanted to settle our differences more and more.

" It's a party goin' on down stairs," he nodded his head toward the door and his dreads swung away from him face. " you comin'?"