Accidental [ Part 2 ][ BoyxBoy]

Chapter Twleve

Ya'll know i love ya'll, right? *winky face*

Do ya'll forgive me yet?

-Raquel-

What i really wanted to do was call Raven, but i didn't.

What i really wanted to do was call Dante, but i didn't.

What i really wanted to do was go find Trey and Garret and slit their fucking throats, but i didn't.

I needed a momment alone to try and stay calm before up underneath my anger i was really scared. One of the only things in my life that meant something was gone. No more basketball. Above the scholarship and the education purposes of playing basketball, i really just wanted to play. All i could see myself doing was going pro and right now that shit had just been swept under the rug.

Nothing.

Shit, i had been playing ball since i was young and i really wasn't shit without it. It kept me out of trouble, kept me happy, and healthy. Ball was it for me.

Beef or not, Trey, Garret, and i all felt the same about basketball and that was the most important thing. Forget Trey fucking my sister, forget Garret fucking Yvonne. The bottom line was that we had to play. I had to play.

I didn't go looking for them though, i went to the school cafeteria to have lunch, sometime after i started eating, they found me. Long before they even walked up, i felt them staring but i just couldn't bring myself to turn around. None of this was right. We were supposed to be boys, brothers and we were beefing about some shit that i really wasn't even concerned about.

Yvonne, i really didn't give a fuck about her. Garret could have her . And Raven meant the entire world to me which is why i trusted Trey so much with her. He could take care of her when i couldn't, love her where i couldn't, and just be there for her. I mean, i felt a little distrust because in both situations i was the last to know but i could work through that if we could just go back to kickin' it like we used to.

I sat at  table alone in the loud cafeteria and continued to stuff my face with slice after slice of cheese pizza. I knew that with no problems at all, if i stopped working out, i was going to gain the freshman 15. College food was just too good.

Step, step.

They were getting closer, and then they were there. Pulling out the chairs accross from me and sitting down. Not missing a beat, i kept eating, it was the only thing calming my nerves.

" say, man," Garret started. " all we gotta do is smile at coach and hug and we back on the team."

Trey cleared his throat. " and to be honest that all that i'm worried about."

That's all he was worried about? I was worried about getting back on the team, but i was also worried about my friends. But if they weren't worried about me, then i wasn't going to admit my innermorst thoughts and feelings.

Garret suggested that we show up at practice the next day and talk to coach, smiling and laughing. I agreed, because i just couldn't sit at the table with them and pretend anymore.

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That night i was laying in my bed, talking to Dante on the phone. Sam had gone somewhere which i was grateful for because i didn't want to deal with him or India.

" i miss 'em." I finnaly admitted to Dante. He had been pressing me to admit that i missed Trey and Garret and i had been denying it for thirty minutes straight but i just couldn't anymore."

" I know." He whispered back. " you guys will become friends again and then it'll be like this whole thing never happened."

" promise?"

" of course."

We stopped talking for a minute and just listened to eachother breathe, funny as it sounds. I missed him so much already and couldn't wait for him to graduate and come to college with me. He was still my rock, and i hoped that we could keep it that way.

When i asked him about school, he paused, almost like he was thinking about something before answering, telling me that it was good. When i asked him what the pause was about he laughed a nervous laugh and told me nothing.

nothing.