I sit at Sarah's desk and I find some pen and paper to write on. It might already be too late given that I have already hurt Sarah, but I owe her an explanation. I'll write it down and leave before she comes back, she won't even have to see me...
... I however am still at her desk, a few tears on the paper and pen still in hand, when I feel Sarah's hand on my shoulder.
"I think you should go," she says in such a soft voice that for a second I don't know if I dreamt it or if she actually said it. "I think you've got some stuff to take care of," she adds. I should have left before she came back.
It takes me a moment to answer, and she waits for me. I almost don't say it out loud, but I know I will regret it if I don't. "Can I... hug you before I go?"
She takes me in her arms, and I squeeze her within my arms. If I can't bring myself to tell her how I feel, all I have left is this hug to show her she matters to me.
I think back to that first meeting, to those golden brown eyes that drew me in, and to us falling asleep in the corridor to a Stephen King novel. Our first kiss by my house, our first date at the minigolf, our talks about books and graphic novels. I let myself feel all the guilt I have been building up inside me as well, the feelings I shouldn't have for Rachie, the frustration of the words not coming out. For the first time, in Sarah's comforting embrace, I let myself reflect on everything I have wanted to avoid this summer. I might need just a little bit more time.
When she releases me I leave a kiss on her forehead, and I wipe a tear from her eyes. She smiles at me, and I stop myself from kissing her again. Not now, not like this.
"I am sorry," I finally say.
I am glad I stayed to give her a proper goodbye. I think I know what I want now.
She pulls away from me, and I turn my head so she won't see the tears fall from my eyes. I grab my phone and the few things I brought with me before leaving.
[Jamie] 3:17 PM
Hi dad. Can you pick me up?
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General FictionFalling in love can be the most wonderful of things - it can also ruin the best of friendships. This is a story about cherishing what we have, and appreciating the little things that make friendship so special. ** ~ To all of you who love someone t...
