stella zegras, twin sister of trevor zegras, navigates her way through the ups and downs of being the only female on the new jersey devils, or any nhl team for that matter.
while she lives in new jersey, and the rest of her family lies in anaheim, i...
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i was dreading this flight home. my charger broke, my phone is dead, so i'm stuck with my thoughts.
my thoughts are dangerous.
not in a mental physic ward or something, but i can think forever.
about someone.
i've been trying to not think about this certain someone, but they've been flooding my brain as of lately.
i don't necessarily want to want her.
well, then i'd be lying.
but in my dreams i seem to be more honest, and i must admit she's been in quite a few.
recently, and if my phone wasn't dead i'd be listening to it right now, 21 by gracie abrams has been on repeat.
it's a very relatable song.
i could get lost inside her eyes. she doesn't have to say she loves me, i just want to tell her that lately she's been on my mind.
but i can't really do that if all aspects are considered.
for one, she obviously likes someone already, because i know she's not posting taylor swift lyrics for kicks and giggles, and she also told me she does.
two, a certain someone in her life would never ever approve, not like i need his approval, but he means a lot to her.
and three, it would break all professional codes that we have.
can you guess who it is yet?
if i were to build a house, her arms would be the walls, her eyes as windows, her smile as the front door, her heart as the fireplace, and her soul as the light.
and in this dream house of mine, i could place all of my faith into it knowing i've finally found my home.
if things work out in my favor, which they most likely won't, there isn't anything i wouldn't go through again if it meant i'd always find her when it's all over.
i feel like i'm wasting my time with her. life is short. too short for us to not spend it together.
i hope a lot of things in life, but this is the one thing i hope the most.
i hope she doesn't feel like she needs to slip off her dress to feel loved, or to be beautiful, or to have worth.
no woman should feel like that.
because a woman's worth isn't just skin deep, it's so much more than that.
and one day, someone will fall in love with your laughter, and the way the universe takes a pause when you breathe.
i could go on and on about how much i like her, i really could. considering the time of this flight, my time is limited.
3ish hours isn't nearly long enough to put into words how much she means to me.
but then again, it can't be put into words.
i could phrase together any words in the dictionary, but they would still be a let down so how amazing this girl really is.
i'm falling for her.
i already fell for her, since the first day i met her, but i've been really falling since 2019.
like a meteor crashing into the earth, i'm falling that hard.
i might've fell june 21, 2012, but i body slammed january 16, 2019.
i fell for her smile, but now i dream of her laughter.
i listened to her talk about her favorite songs, now mine being her voice.
she reminds me of my mom's chocolate chip cookies, my childhood bedroom, the first day of summer when luke, quinn, and i, would play outside all day long.
every fourth of july when i would eat those red, white, and blue popsicles and watch the fireworks every year.
her eyes are like a warm cup of coffee.
her smile is utterly blinding.
her laugh deserves grammys.
i could write poems about stella.
and i think i might.
the first thing that caught my eye, that kept me hooked by and by, was the soft gaze of your eyes. the warm coffee color caught me by surprise.
the little dimples in your face, that always appeared in their place. the soft hair atop your head, beautiful even if you just hopped out of bed.
the simple way of beautiful light, that grin brighter than the brightest white. a comforting nature that tells me i'm not alone. it's you, stella zegras, to me, you are home.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
so, this chapter was shorter compared to my other ones but that's because i just wanted a singular chapter showing y'all where jack's head is at when it comes to stella <33
this was actually one of the hardest chapters i've written so far although it's the shortest, so i hope you like it :)
