☙ Journal Of Stories And Thoughts

XV - Lost in hell

I would like to know
If everything can go back to how it was.
No, actually
I would like to know if we can love each other as much as before.
Actually,
I want to know if we can love each other even more.
No,
I want to know if we can keep on like this.
I don't know what I want to know,
I just want to know
To be reassured
So I can know it's not over
So I know it'll never end, just like we promised each other
So that I'm sure but don't take you for granted,
I have never done it,
I do not know, maybe
'Cause I can't imagine myself without you
I don't even know what we are now
I don't know
And I really want to know
Things that I know :
I know it's worth it
I know it's for us
I know it's for you
I know I love you
I know you love me
I know we want each other
I know we can be happy
I know we were happy

Maybe after all,
Maybe after you broke me
Maybe since I'm not cured,
Maybe I'm the problem
That I have become the problem
But I wasn't
So why now it has to be me
If I'm just struggling to heal myself
I stab you deeper than the scars you left me
How to heal evil with evil,
Like endless wars and revenge,
Where the guilty are former victims,
I am guilty
But we are two

Well, not anymore