(to me) your face is love | Daniel Ricciardo

Part 9 - mastermind

I was woken up by a massive thirstiness. My head was pounding and as my bare feet touched the carpet I became dizzy. I pulled the heavy velvet curtain aside, it was still pitch black outside. In an attempt to be quiet, I carefully walked over to the mini fridge and drank the whole water bottle in one sip. I glanced over at Daniel who were sleeping so soundly. In this quiet, still moment, I realized how much I had started to care for him. I approached the bed as a peacefulness settled over me. I stroked his soft hair as I started humming and the phrase tumbled out of my mouth before I could catch it 'to me your face is love'. I stopped, my eyes went wide open and I rushed over to my luggage to find my notebook. I pulled it out in a rush and started writing as the lyric came flowing out of my mouth. 'to me your face is love, descending from above'. I caught myself looking down at my body and then over at Daniel 'I'm naked in my longing, reach for you touch'. I couldn't believe after all these days I finally finished writing the song that had been stuck in my head. I happy danced my way back to bed, crawling closer to Daniel's body as I slowly fell asleep to the sound of his breathing.

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The bright sun shining through the curtains made my eyelids feel heavier as I rolled over. Daniel was sitting shirtless by the end of the bed, reading in something that looked like a notebook. As my sight got clearer I realized it was my notebook. I threw the duvet to the side and made eye contact with Daniel

"What are you doing?" I snatched the book out of his hands in frustration

"Good morning to you too" Daniel had a confused look on his face

"You were not supposed to read that" I felt like he was invading my privacy and it freaked me out

"Why not?"

"It is private, you can't just go through my stuff!"

"I wasn't going through your stuff, it was on the floor and I wondered what it was" he stuttered as he straightened his back and crossed his arms tightly

The mixture of the massive headache and betrayal got too much "just leave me alone" I stormed off to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. The glimpse of myself in the mirror made me want to throw up, I took a few deep breaths while it felt like my lungs were on fire. A careful knock appeared and I immediately regretted my behaviour

"[Y/N], if I knew it would upset you I wouldn't have read it" his voice sounded so soft and it broke my heart. Everything that had happened over the last days were just overwhelming, yet I never should have taken it out on him

"I'm sorry for snapping" I slowly opened the door and sat down on the bathroom floor. Daniel softened when he saw my face and sat down beside me. I couldn't hold the tears back anymore as I rested my head on his shoulder.

"I just feel a little overwhelmed right now and those lyrics are very personal to me" I sobbed, feeling very vulnerable opening up to him

"It's okay" he wiped away my tears and gave a soft kiss. The kiss tasted salty from my tears, and I was at my calmest at this point.

"I'm not sure if this is what you want to hear right now, but if it is to any help you are a mastermind"

I quickly removed my head from his shoulder looking at him in disbelief

"I'm not kidding, your lyrics are too good to just be stuck in a meaningless notebook"

Did he just call my notebook meaningless? Whatever, that was not the point. I caught myself thinking for a moment before replying

"I guess I'm just afraid it ain't good enough"

"If you let that sort of mindset get to you, nothing will ever happen" he gently tilted my chin and looked into my eyes