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Damiano leaves you when you're pregnant

Requested by obessedwithrockstars 💙

You're at your apartment doing some cleaning as you're trying to keep yourself busy whilst you wait for the result of the pregnancy test you've just taken. You don't want to think about it, you just want to do something that will take your mind off it. You have a habit of avoiding things you find scary or uncomfortable, but you can't help it.

You've been vomiting quite a bit recently in addition to craving all sorts of weird food combinations. Also your period never came last month. Given these symptoms, you figured you should take a pregnancy test. You haven't told your boyfriend, Damiano, about all of this though. He's so busy with the band, you don't want to bother him, to be a burden.

The alarm on your phone abruptly rings out, making you jump. You take a deep breath and then go back up to the bathroom to see the result. Your heart is thumping and you feel as though you can't take whole breaths. 'It's gonna be okay.' you whisper to yourself over and over, trying to provide yourself with reassurance. You take another deep breath and then turn the test over.

'Pregnant'

You gasp as your heart sinks into your chest. You really didn't want to be pregnant, not yet anyway. But before you can give it anymore thought, the front door opens. "Y/n?" you hear Damiano call out.
"Up here!" you shout as you leave the bathroom and go downstairs to Damiano.

"Hey Y/n." he says, not in his usually joyful tone.
"Dami, is everything okay?" you ask apprehensively. 
He takes both of your hands is his. "Y/n, we need to talk."
"O-okay." you reply- this doesn't sound good.
He sighs and looks at your hands in his, avoiding looking directly at you. "I've been thinking...we are in such different chapters of our lives and we want different things..." he begins. "It's not fair on you if I'm always busy with the band."
"Damiano, what are you getting at?" you ask.
"I don't think our relationship is going to work in the long run." he says softly, perhaps attempting to lessen the sting of his words on your heart.

You let go of his hands as tears begin to clog your vision. "You're b-breaking up with me?" you cry, as the lump in your throat overwhelms you. "D-Dami...I love you...please don't do this to me." you beg.
"Y/n, I'm so sorry, but I think it's for the best." he tells you calmly, remaining as stoic as he can.
You begin to cry, tears streaming down your face.
"Y/n." Damiano says as he tilts your chin up to look at him. "You're going to be fine...and we can still be friends."
You're not sure you can just be friends with Damiano- it seems too painful, you love him so much.

You then remember- you're pregnant. Now that Damiano is leaving you, you're going to have to manage all by yourself.
"Goodbye Y/n." he says before kissing your forehead and then proceeding to leave.
"Damiano?" you cry.
He turns back to you "Yes Y/n?"
You feel as though you should tell him that you're pregnant- it is his child. However, you also feel like if you reveal this, it would seem like you're trapping him in a relationship that he doesn't want to be in.
"I...I- actually, it doesn't matter." you say.

—

One year later

You are currently on a walk in the park, getting some fresh air with your son, Harry. You've been getting on quite well as a single parent, especially as you've had some friends to help.

You haven't seen Damiano since the day he broke up with you- he doesn't know about the child you have together. Now that you think about it, you feel guilty and wrong for not telling him and you don't know how you've been able to keep something so big from him. You still miss Damiano like hell, he was the love of your life and you're constantly reminded of him because Harry looks just like him.

You sit down on one of the benches and observe the beautiful nature of the park. You then take Harry out of his stroller and hold him in your arms. You take a look at all of his beautiful features, once again reminding you of Damiano. "You know Harry, you look just like your daddy. You're so beautiful just like him." you say gently to your baby boy. More guilt begins to arise within you. 'I need to tell Damiano.' you think to yourself.

"Y/n?" you hear a voice say.
You look around and see Damiano.
"Dami?" you say, completely stunned.
"Y/n, it's so nice to see you!" he exclaims as he takes a seat next to you on the bench. You smile at him. He's looking beautiful as ever.

Damiano then looks at Harry and then back at you, his eyes widened in surprise. "Y-you had a baby?" he asks in astonishment.
"Y-yeah I did." you reply. "This is my son, Harry...our son."
Damiano's astonished face softens into one of emotionlessness. "W-what?"
"That day you left me Damiano...I found out I was pregnant." you begin, finally telling him what he should've heard a long time ago. "I should've told you, but I didn't want to trap you when you didn't want to be with me." you admit.
"Oh Y/n." he begins as he puts an arm around you, pulling you into him. "You wouldn't have been trapping me...I could have been there for you, supported you, been a part of his life."
You feel awful about yourself as you hear Damiano talk like this. "Dami, I'm so sorry" you plead.

"Can I hold him?" he asks.
You then carefully hand Harry to Damiano.
"Hey little man, it's your daddy here. I'm so happy to finally meet you." Damiano whispers softly, then kissing Harry's small head.
You then realise that Damiano is crying, tears topple from his eyes, soaking his cheeks.
"Aw Dami." you say as you rub his back.
"Y/n, I'm so sorry I wasn't there." he sobs "I can't believe I have this beautiful son."
"Damiano, it wasn't your fault you weren't there- it was mine." you tell him. "I would love for you to be a part of his life."
Damiano wipes his tears away. "I'd love that." he smiles.

You lean your head on his shoulder. This moment feels just like old times. "I missed you." he says.
"I missed you too." you reply.
Damiano kisses the top of your head. The three of you then stay there on the bench. It feels like you're truly a family now.