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"If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead?"
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That Night Khun couldn't sleep for a reason. The word kept repeating in his head like a echo. His Insecurities got best of him as he kept turning around but couldn't sleep at all. At last he let out a groan as he saw it's just 2 am.
Quickly wearing his shoes and a coat, he slowly open the door and quietly made his way out of Mansion. Escaping the guard's sight wasn't a big deal for him
Sitting at Hospital Rooftop,even though he came here to meet Dr. Top, Vegas words made him question his love.Do top really love him? is he already tired of him? Do he really regret loving him?
Closing his eyes, he could feel the cold breeze hit his face . Singing was a escape for him,but borning in Mafia family and being oldest brother never helped it. so he had to give up on his passion
No one knew it? why? cause he never told , he never told them how he feels, he never told them he was jealous when he saw kim singing, he never said he also feels lonely, he never said he also feels insecure. He never talk about himself, he made other's feelings his first priority because he is eldest and he isn't supposed to be weak
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted Not what you'd think And if I'm being honest It might've been a nightmare To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly) So I stepped off the Golden, mm Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried) Nobody een noticed I saw them standing right there Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
I had a dream I got everything I wanted But when I wake up, I see You with me
And you say "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to If I could change the way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear 'They don't deserve you'"
I tried to scream But my head was underwater They called me weak Like I'm not just somebody's daughter It could've been a nightmare But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago But I don't wanna let anybody know 'Cause everybody wants something from me now And I don't wanna let 'em down
I had a dream I got everything I wanted But when I wake up, I see You with me
And you say "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to If I could change the way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear 'They don't deserve you'"
If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead? If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead?
As he stopped singing, he didn't realized he was crying until he found one soft hands wiping his tears making him startle, releasing who the person is Khun immediately turn his head another side and wipe his tears masking a smile
"You finally came, Do you know how much i waited", khun said being dramatic faking a smile
" You don't need to pretend in front of me", Wang said looking at Khun who was looking everywhere but not in his eyes
"what are you saying, anyway-
Khun stopped talking as suddenly wang hugged him tightly
" I'm right here, you can let it out. i wont judge you i promise, your heart is safe with me", Dr. Wang said as his eyes held sincerity and concern
And who was Khun to stop? He broke down into tears, shaking violently as he grip his arms around Wang Waist more tight fearing he might go away
"It's okay, let it out", Wang said drawing circles on his back
" w-why everyone is t-tired of me, i j-just want t-their best. E-everytime i sacrifice, don't i d-deserve some happiness too. i a-also feel lonely when i see them spending time with each o-other but n..not me, I feel upset too when they talk behind my back, when they say they a-are tired.... of m-me. i j-just k-know i can't burden them w-with my problem , i h-hate myself s-sometimes. I-its my birthday, but i p-planned something f-for them thinking t-they would b-be happy, b-but they s-said t-.. they-
Tankhun couldn't complete his sentence as he choke on his tears letting out a painful sob . Dr wang was getting more worried as khun was on the verge of panic attack and this is the first time he saw him this much vulnerable
"it's okay , don't think about them now. Focus on me, take a deep breath. Very Good and now slowly release it ",
It took few mins but tankhun breathing got regular but those painful cries never stopped , even Wang got tears in his eyes
But next sentence he heard made him freeze on his position
" i c-cant d-do this a-anymore, they d-dont need me. I c-cant c-cant -
"Shhh, listen to me khun we need you-. Don't say like this please, i know it's hurting. It's hurting too much, but without you everyone is incomplete. They will realise their mistake soon. you can stay with me-
" I need to go " khun said before letting top finish his sentence
"you really love your family", he said as they shared a kiss before leaving. It's already 4 am and tankhun can't take risk of getting caught
" i already called arm and Pol, they are waiting for you in car",
Tankhun nod before making his way to exit , not noticing the presence of that one certain person
"you can come out now", Dr. Wang said to someone who startled at the thought of getting caught
