𝐑𝐞𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 | 𝐑𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐧 𝐱 𝐎𝐂

One.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐒 𝐒𝐔𝐍 peeked through my curtains, as i attempted to block out the light with my arm. I slept pretty rough last night.

When i got home yesterday my mom was sprawled on the kitchen floor, bottles surrounding her.

It's not like this hasn't happened before, it was a common sight in my home, but it somehow felt different this time.

When i was finally able to wake my mother up and regain her conscience, she kept weakly grabbing my arms, telling me that she hasn't got long and i should leave before she goes too far. That i should escape before things got bad.

I knew this was just her intoxicated mind talking, and i was used to it by now. Although this time i couldn't help but be affected by her words. Normally i'd just brush it off and tell her to get some rest.

But she's never said anything like this before.

I attempted to forget last night, reaching for the phone on my bedside table. A distraction.

11:34. Shit.

I saw i had 2 missed calls and 6 text messages from JJ.

I quickly respond telling him i slept in and that i'll come meet him and the others at John B's asap.

I brush my teeth, wash my face, and run a brush through my dark hair. I put on some denim shorts and a crop top with a bikini underneath, as always.

And lastly, i chuck on my black converse before  rushing out the door to avoid the potential of my mother seeing me. I didn't want to be reminded of last night. She probably didn't either.

I start my journey to John B's, pulling the cigarettes out of my back pocket. I know, it's a bad habit and i'm planning on quitting, but with the way life is at the moment, it's really the least of my problems.

Once i make it to the house, i'm immediately greeted with the familiar arms of the boy i find myself thinking about almost every hour of the day.

When i first met my group of friends, me and JJ hit it of straight away. There was initial attraction, and after a few messy hookups feelings became involved. He asked me to be his girlfriend around 6 months ago and it has been going well so far. I've never felt this way about any other boy before.

I know that JJ had his issues, but he always tries to remind me of how grateful he is that i am always there; especially in his moments of weakness.

Me and JJ really only had one issue.

He had a habit of letting his eyes wander.

On two occasions, JJ has been close too potentially cheating on me. It's never actually happened, at least for all that i know. But he's been close.

The last time was around two months ago with some random girl at a party. Pope caught him and immediately came and found me.

Both times he was absolutely slaughtered. But that can't be an excuse. He would always apologise, explaining that he wasn't in the right headspace, and how it was the stupidest thing he's ever done.

Which doesn't explain how and why it's happened twice.

It sounds ridiculous, i'm aware. And i know it's completely unacceptable. It's any girls worst nightmare.

I'm always thinking about when it might happen next. I know it isn't good for me or our relationship, but JJ is the only person who understands me.

I don't know what i would do without him.

JJ held my waist and left a soft kiss on my lips. "Hey, Baby."

"Hey." I kissed him back with a smile.

"Morning Sofia." Pope sweetly said.

"Morning? It's Twelve Thirty Pope." Kiara stated.

"Shush." Pope frowned like a cute little puppy.

I laughed and rolled my eyes, letting my lips find JJ's once again as he smirked.

"Alright love birds." I turn around, my back laying onto JJ as i see John B enter the room with a bag of chips. I don't know if i was just seeing things but i swear out of the corner of my eye i saw Kiara looking me up and down with a bitter sort of look on her face. What was all that about? Never have i ever seen her make that face at me before.

JJ cleared his throat and asked like usual. "So guys, plans for today?"

"Well, i found out there's another party down at figure 8 tonight. What do you guys say we go have some fun?." John B asked with a smirk on his face.

"I'm down". JJ cheered.

"Me too. Maybe no trouble this time guys." Kiara pointedly said, directing her comment at JJ. Last time JJ got into a fight with this kid called Topper. JJ took one of his beers or something stupid like that.

"I agree, but i'm up for it." Pope added with a raised hand.

JJ looked down on me from his position behind me with a quirked brow. "Baby?".

"Of course. As long as i'm with you." I looked up at him and smiled. It was true, i really did mean my words. He was my favourite company.

He returned a smile and pecked my lips twice.

Being held in JJ Maybanks arms with the touch of his lips and warmth of his body was all i wanted.

I just wish i could stop thinking about the cloud of doubt and lack of trust i had in him.

A part of me knew it was wrong. I knew it wasn't my fault. I just wish our relationship was secure. I always had.

But another part of me felt a need for JJ. I craved his love.

Or maybe i just craved the idea that someone was capable of loving me.

I cleared my throat, mentally telling myself to somehow try to enjoy the rest of my day.

Even with the lingering fear of tonight's potential drowning out my entire mind.

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Ahhhh! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Many more too come...

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