The Ruler of Westeria

TROW 34| Her Regret

Xiomara

Ever since I intruded on the Forbidden Dune Tower, the king became more distant and cold towards me. He frequently went to the desert to train his Shadow Knight Cavalry. Sa tuwing babalik naman siya ay madalas siya nag t-training mag-isa at ayaw niyang may dumidistorbo sa kanya. 

I tried to please him and bring him food or water whenever he was resting, but he always ignored me and shut me out. I would prepare his bath and wash his clothes every morning, but he threw them away and neglected my efforts. He avoided crossing paths with me and locked the General Library to ensure I wouldn't ever step on the tower. 

I know what I did was wrong, and considering how I made his character, I was already expecting the treatment he gave me. His traumatic life resulted in his monstrous heart to the point blood wasn't running in his veins anymore but revenge. He has cut the last remaining affection in his heart and devoid himself of feeling any emotions. 

Malungkot kong hinawakan ang pintura ng araw na nakakabit sa isa sa mga dingding ng pasilyo ng palasyo. Despite the colorless painting drawn with pure blank ink, I could feel his tender passion of wanting to see the rising sun with each stroke. He and his people were deprived of seeing the bright sun for thousands of years. They were kept in the dark and labeled as evil people who were treated worse than those of demons. 

"I'm sorry you had to go through that because of me." Mahina kong bulong habang patuloy na pinaglalandas ang mga daliri ko sa pulidong guhit ng pintura. 

Inalis ko ang atensyon ko roon at napabuga na lang ng malalim na hininga. This palace don't need guards for no one would even dare to trespass here, but at least before, female entertainers were allowed to serve the king. Ngunit pagkatapos ng nangyari kay Vera at sa mga kaibigan niya, wala ng kahit na sino pa ang pinahintulutang makapasok sa palasyo. 

Sa tuwing naiiwan ako mag-isa rito ay wala akong ibang ginawa kun'di ang umikot sa buong palasyo at pagmasdan ang mga pintura sa pader. Minsan ay nagagawi ako sa balkonahe upang tanawin ang buwan at ang mga kabalyero na nagsasanay. Madalas ay nasa kwarto lang ako at nag-iisip kung paano kunin ang loob ng hari. Pero higit sa lahat, iniisip ko rin ang kalagayan ni Xiovenn at ng mga Arkon sa Westeria. Wala akong balita kung ano ang kaganapang nangyayari sa kanila. 

Kumulo ang tyan ko kaya nagtungo ako sa dining table ng palasyo. Pagdating ko ay puno na ng iba't ibang putahe at prutas ang mahabang lamesa. No one cooks for me, nor serves me, but food always appeared out of nowhere as if it knew I am hungry. In the morning it usually appeared on the side of my bed, some time in a dark afternoon, in the balcony or in the dining table. May mga gulay at kasangkapan naman sa pagluto sa main kitchen pero may kalayuan kaya minsan nakakatamad magluto.

Umupo ako sa upuan bago kumuha ng saging at ubas. There were also grilled fish and steamed chicken on the plate together with some sugary deserts on the table. Tahimik lang akong ngumuya habang kumakain. The huge and empty walls of this palace feel lonely and isolated. I could not imagine myself living here for the rest of my life. Pakiramdam ko made-depress lang ako rito kung tumagal ako. 

While eating, I couldn't help but think about my brother, Xiovenn. Nakakasigurado akong halos bali-baliktarin na niya ang buong Westeria para hanapin ako kahit alam niya kung saan talaga ako dapat hanapin. Dahil malaki ang posibilidad na nakatuon ang pansin ng reyna at mga arkon kung paano depensahan ang buong Westeria. 

I protected the king they labeled as someone who will bring doom and calamity. Malaki ang galit sa akin ng reyna kaya paniguradong tinuring niyang pagtataksil ang ginawa ko. She will do everything in her power to make everyone believe I am a traitor. Nakakasigurado akong wala silang inilatag na plano upang iligtas ako rito. Because of that, I am afraid of the things my brother is thinking.