On the other side of the pond

Part 13

I felt like shit, my plan had failed miserably. Ivy hasn't said a word to me today. I mean, what did I expect? I should have written my name on the note. I felt tears starting to sting in my eyes and I dropped myself on my bed. Was I never going to find love? I stared at the ceiling while unpleasant thoughts filled my head. Without thinking I grabbed the pin again and put it against my skin. No! this had to stop right now! I burst out in tears and drop the pin. My phone lit up and I saw that I got a message from Silvana. I have to tell her.

Messages:

Sil<3: heyy!

Me: please help me...

Sil<3: Why?! What's wrong??

Me: I hurt myself sil... I need to talk to someone about it.

Sil<3: hey, please don't do that! I love you and you mean the world to me <3 do you want to call and talk about it?

Tears were dripping down my face as I clicked on the "call" button. Silvana and I talked for awhile and I told her everything. She was really comforting and helped me get trough it. After a while I decided I wanted to get some sleep so I hung up the phone and went to take a nap. I woke up to a text message from Ivy.

Messages:

Ivy: hey! Are we still on for tomorrow?

Me: yea sure! 3pm at the library?

Ivy: yup! I'll be there

Me: great! See u tomorrow!

I smiled at my phone with the thought of meeting Ivy tomorrow. What if I just tell her that I liked her tomorrow? I put on some music and read something before my mom called for dinner. After dinner I watched a movie and went to bed, dreaming about... you guessed it! Ivy...

~time skip to the next day 3pm~

When I arrived at the library I already saw Ivy standing in front of the building. I checked my phone and saw that I was 10 minutes late, shit! "you're late" Ivy said while waving me over. "I'm sorry! I forgot about time!" I quickly lock my bike and walk inside with her. we walked to Ivy's little spot with the small couch and sat down. I noticed that Ivy was really nervous but I was too nervous myself to say anything. "So uhm, I got your letter." Ivy said with a nervous chuckle. I froze and my heart started racing. How did Ivy know that the note was mine?! "I- uhm..." I stumbled. Ivy grabbed my hands and looked down at them and then back at my eyes. "It was very well written." She almost whispers. "H-how... why do you think that was my letter?" I asked her with nervousness dripping all over my words. "I just figured it out, the way you quickly looked away after I read the note." Fuck! I thought to myself. Ivy was still holding my hands and I was too scared to say or do anything. A little "oh" escaped my mouth and Ivy looked up at me. "do you really think that about me?" she asks and squeezes my hands a little. Before I could think I heavily nodded my head. "yes Ivy, I really think you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever met, I think I've liked you ever since you helped me with my bike that day and you-" I stopped talking. Ivy had let go of my hands and was looking away from me. I dropped my head, Ivy probably thought she was stupid now and would never want to see me again, but she didn't... I felt her warm hands cupping my face and lifting it so she could look me in the eyes. Her beautiful brown eyes, a few freckles scattered around her face and her pretty lips. "Of course I remember." She whispers and pulls my face closer to hers. She hesitates a little but then closes the gap between us, her lips connecting to mine. It felt wonderful, our lips moving in sync, deepening into the kiss as long as we could. She placed her hands on my waist and I put mine on her shoulders. She deconnects our lips and looks at me with her amazing smile. "was that okay?" she asks. "more than okay." I respond before reconnecting our lips again.

"Maybe everything will actually be okay..."