Y/ns POV
I laid down on my plain white bed , my body convulsing as I pulled my knees up to my chest and sobbed.
I didn't want to go out and meet them, I'd rather go for round two. They would only get me in trouble if I did go anyway.
Sweat beats dripped down my forehead as my headache worsened , I needed a mental breakdown. I needed to escape. I needed to die.
My head rushed with memories of my horrific past, I've never caught a break emotionally or physically. My parents were abusive to each other, my sister , and me so I ran. I didn't want to be around anyone anymore . I found myself in jail for a short period of time, landing me into that dreadful group of friends. Since then , on numerous occasions , I've been arrested , beaten and been exposed to things no one should be exposed to...especially at the age of fourteen which was the age I ended up in this mess.
" why me?" The question I had been asking for years echoed through my murky apartment.
A sudden knock at the door halted my thoughts , I sat up and put my phone in my jacket pocket zipping it up before I even thought about answering.
My legs took me to the door, I took a deep shaky breath. Enjoying the silence while it lasted.
The second the door opened dae pounced on me , punching me all over.
I backed away trying to block his harmful fists from my face, my hands quaking as I held my forearms in an x shape to guard my head .
I noticed a bottle of alcohol out of the corner of my eye, without thinking properly I grabbed it . Smashing it against the table so it was now lethal.
I stabbed daes stomach eight times before he collapsed onto the floor.
I stared at his unconscious body, my bloody hands shaking as I dropped the glass.
" no.." the word slipped out of my mouth " no no no"
I didn't know what to do, so I ran . A habit of mine. I sprinted out of the apartment as fast as my legs would carry me .
I had blood splattered all over my pale face and clothing, my hands were covered in the syrupy red substance.
I ran through the streets , earning strange glances from those around me as I heaved for air. My h/c hair flowing in the wind as I sprinted.
Soon enough I found that my legs had taken me to a car park beside a gas station in the middle of nowhere, I dropped to my knees and let out a pained scream .
Aggressively, I pounded my fists against the dried tar whilst tears slipped down my cheeks .
My knuckles had split causing more blood to run from them , I laid down against the paved land hoping a car would come along and end this eternal pain.
Sobs continued to escape me, my body shaking with every pathetic noise that escaped my dry lips
I heard the gas station door open but ignored it, people could judge me all they wanted. They were right, I'm a mess.
" y/n!"
My ears perked up at the sound of my name , I looked up to see someone running toward me. I couldn't tell who it was however due to the tears blurring my vision.
I quickly jumped up and tried to defend myself, it could easily be daehyun or daejung.
" WHAT!" I yelled into the empty and dark parking lot
" y/n...what happened?"
I blinked twice to see it was chan, my eyes widened . I began to back away.
" n-no" I shook my head " dont come near me. I'm a monster"
" Chan? Who is that?" Another voice asked
" bangchan! Dont come near me!" I screamed as he approached even further " please..."
" what happened?" He repeated , a serious tone in his soft voice
" i-im....I stabbed dae... i-i think hes dead but I dont know chan" I began to hyperventerlate for the second time infront of this man today " I'm scared "
" shit" he sighed then stepped closer , I flinched away " y/n, I dont bite. You know that, come here ... please?"
Hesitantly I took a few steps closer to the taller
" get in the car then take us to your place. We can help" he held his hand out to me
" a-are you sure? " I bit my lip anxiously
" yes, guys. You coming?" He turned around
How did this just become the worst and best day of my life , all of stray kids were right there. But they were probably already freaked out.
Felix walked closer to me and frowned " cmere, me and ji will clean you up."
Chan urged me to follow the younger, in the end I gave in and followed. Wondering nervously about what was going to happen next.
