Bangchans pov
After a few hours of napping both me and y/n woke up , we had chatted for a while . Hes actually pretty funny, and smart , but still we had a lot of work to do regarding the trust issues side of things.
" I want a cat so bad " he continued our conversation " but like , If my suicidal thoughts win who's gonna look after my little baby?"
" have you ever thought that getting a cat could like...help your suicidal thoughts?" I furrowed my brows
He snickered " help my suicidal thoughts, you're funny"
" no , seriously. I read that if someome has something to care for and look after, like a pet, it decreases depression levels" I explained, he simply nodded
" m'kay " he replied " either way, I don't have the money for that shit"
Sighing at the statement, I took his hand in mine " y/n, do you want to get better?"
" i-i dont know " he shrugged, clearly desperately wanting to escape this conversation
" look , I'll buy the cat. I will pay for its vets Bills and everything if I have to" I replied "jisungie got bbama and that helped his anxiety so much....so it's worth a shot, right?"
" I'll think about it" the shorter said quietly
" good to here " I smiled " hows your face feeling?"
" bruisey" he chuckled
I cupped his cheek delicately "does this hurt?" I asked , he shook his head. I cupped the other cheek to " what about now?" He shook his head once more.
After a bit of me putting my hands on various parts of his face and figuring out what hurt to touch and what didn't so I wouldn't make any mistake there was a knock at the door.
Y/n immediately tensed up "hey, you stay here. I'll get it "
He grabbed my wrist " be careful, it could be daehyun or daejung." He spoke panickingly
" I will, dont you worry" I caressed his hair " you gotta let go for me to answer it though " I chuckled
Quickly, he released my arm allowing me to walk to the door
Y/ns pov
Chan walked out of the room and too the front door, I was tense. What if he got hurt?
Just another reason for me to hate myself.
After the door opened quiet chatter rang through the house , I gripped my bed sheets tightly in fear of what was happening.
Suddenly, the bedroom door swung open, I sat up, it was seungmin and changbin
" hey bud" changbin smiled "how are you feeling?"
" b-better " I stuttered nervously, edging closer and closer into my bed
" hey, dont be nervous " seungmin said gently " we just wanted to check on you, chan didn't tell us how you were doing so we decided to come find out ourselves. "
I nodded and allowed them to sit on the end of my bed.
" do you feel good about the vent you had yesterday?" Asked changbin
" yeah..." I knew I had missed stuff out, they knew I had missed stuff out. Its just whether or not they were going to point it out.
" y/n, I've been doing psychology for to long to not know that youre hiding something" sighed seungmin " you dont have to tell us, but it might be better if you get it off your chest"
" n-no, I'm fine. I told you everything " I lied , hoping they wouldn't notice.
Seungmin gave me a look which made my nerves increase even further
" if you dont wanna tell us thats fine, but dont lie" he spoke sternly , I nodded
" sorry" I looked down and pulled my knees up to my chest
" guys, go easy on him" chan walked in and handed the two a couple glasses of water " are the others coming over?"
" later " changbin nodded
Bangchan smiled widley " I cant wait "
I can
