Y/ns pov
Sat down on my bed, with my knees pulled up to my chest and tears streaming down my emotionless face, I began to shake vigorously. My entire body practically vibrating as my sobs echoed through the murky room.
Suddenly, the door opened. I didn't even look at who it was, I didn't care. I've tried so many times to ditch people, but they always bounce back at me....I cant even isolate myself right, no wonder I'm such a failure at everything else.
" baby" chan sat on the edge of my bed " why are you crying?" He cupped my cheek and wiped the tears rolling down my cheeks away
" why am I doing this?" I asked, still not looking his direction
" doing what?"
" existing " I replied weakly " what's the point? something I've found in this life is everyone seems to think everything is my fault, when all I've been doing is trying to make my life work out. I change myself, for people I don't even want to be around and still .... I'm not enough."
" what's making you think that?" He kissed my lips gently " I dont understand...."
" it's just...I try to make myself fit in and be normal. But people just see me as that one guy who commits crime, or that one guy who left his family. " I shook my head " I wish my problems would disappear. I wish...I could disappear. " I sobbed " I dont get it , what did I do to deserve this life? Why am I so sensitive? Why am I alive !?"
Chan pulled me closer, hugging me tightly " it's ok baby, let it all out" he rubbed circles in my back
I felt him peck the top of my head as he allowed me to cry into his chest " y/n-ah " his voice was weak, almost like he was crying to " I love you....I love you so much, don't leave. I know your life is hard but I'll always be here for you, to help you through the rough and the smooth."
" i-i love you too channie hyung" I sniffled, hugging his waist as tight as I possibly could " so much"
I pulled out of the hug and made eye contact with him, cupping his cheeks wiping his tears away in the process.
" now why are you crying?" I chuckled through my years
" because I care about you" he sniffled " and I don't want to loose you, you're my boyfriend . I want nothing more than you to feel safe and comfortable "
" b-boyfriend?" I asked
" well....I think that's what we are, right?" He replied, smiling slightly.
" yeah " I nodded, leaning in and kissing his lips
" god I love you" he attacked my entire face with kisses " please dont forget that"
I giggled and smiled widley " I wont forget channie" finally, he caught my lips in a long and sweet kiss.
We both laid back down , our body's intertwining with each others comfortably as we cuddled down together and slowly drifted of to sleep.
