𝗠𝗼̈𝘁𝗹𝗲𝘆 𝗖𝗿𝘂̈𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀 {𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸 2} 🤍

•💛 𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗛𝗮𝗶𝗿, 𝗕𝗮𝗯𝗲 {𝗧𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘆 𝗟𝗲𝗲}

A/N: This was requested by guccipeppers33, so thank you! Sorry it took a while, I'm still catching up with the requests for this book :) I excluded some of the later request stuff you asked for just because I didn't have the time to add it all, but I did my best to make it as good as I could with the other things you said.

DISCLAIMER: This imagine contains themes of cancer, so if that's triggering to anyone please don't read. I will handle it as sensitively as I can. I have lost family members to cancer and had a Nan who survived it so, I do know what's it's like and how horrible it is, I mean no offence at all by this.

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Hannah's POV, December 1988

Things were going great for me and Tommy earlier in the year, the guys had all gotten clean and were hyped to make their next album and the sobriety Tom had made our relationship a million times stronger than it had been because we spent more time together and wanted to be around each other more.

Everything was almost perfect... until August when I found out I had ovarian cancer after going to the doctor with a few symptoms that I didn't think much of but after I started losing weight and feeling just not myself, I chose to go get it checked out and Tommy got pretty insistent on it too.

I'm so glad I did now because it had been such a shock to the system, I didn't want to tell anyone about it, didn't want anyone to look at me differently but I knew I had too, because they'd find out when I had treatment, they were the hardest conversations I've ever had in my life.

Tommy was with me when I found out so there was no need to tell him but it was still horrible to go home with him after finding out because although Tommy had a reputation, he wasn't stupid, ovarian cancer can be bad for fertility and we'd been talking about having kids in the next couple of years and this could affect those chances.

I'd spoken this through with my doctor and he said that their main treatment for this will be chemotherapy, which can affect fertility but in most cases only affects fertility while you're on the treatment and any side effects will be reversed once the chemo is complete.

If chemo doesn't work though, or work well enough, they might have to remove the ovary which the cancers on, which shouldn't affect our chances of getting pregnant so it wouldn't be devastating but they'd still rather give me chemo as that would be more beneficial in the long run if the cancer has spread anywhere else.

I only prayed that the chemotherapy does reverse the infertility otherwise, I don't know what we're going to do.

Tommy's said he wouldn't leave me because of it but he deserves kids, he'd be a great dad and it's clear to me how much he wants it given how excited he gets whenever we talk about it or whenever he sees kids in general.

Everything about this was so hard, and when I actually started the chemo treatment it got even harder. Beside the fatigue, aching, pain and nausea the hair loss was the worst for me because it made me feel like I was losing control over myself.

It sounds stupid but it did, I couldn't control what it was doing and it made the cancer real to me and I felt so self conscious about it every-time I'd look at myself and see my hair becoming less and less, thinner and thinner looking. I dreaded showering because it always came out in clumps and every time it did I'd just cry, so it's got to the point where Tommy had to shower with me and deal with it because I couldn't stand to run my fingers through my hair and just have it coming out in my hands.