Faithfully yours

Chapter Four

Kim dragged Chay through the corridors and back into the elevator. The two resided on the floor above the lounge level. The level was only occupied by the two, though they were not permanent residents of the main manor. Kim had moved out of the family home when he turned of legal age. He bought a very modern styled, black cladded exterior and a flat roof house, located out of the city, around a thirty-minute drive from the main manor. The none stop rage that the city screamed, and the contrasting silence of the manor had finally driven Kim to move into the quiet, to just be surrounded by his music and ever so deadly thoughts. No matter how much he craved the quietness, without the sound of a certain someone, Kim had realised there was never peace.

Chay resided at his family house. He loved the comfort his family gives him and embraced in their love. As Porsche got older and started spending more time at the main manor than his own house, Chay felt the loss of Porsche, the loss of his older brother that he admired so much. His parents did very much shower him in their unconditional love, but as Chay got older, he became conscious in his clingy behaviour and distanced himself. The pouty and clingy little boy being replaced overnight with a boy who now craves affection in silence. 

Kim on the other hand, purely visits the main manor in the intention that he will run into Chay, though there has not been one day he had not run into the younger. The older had Big keep tabs on when the younger stayed over to fit his schedule around it, but it hasn't been a requirement lately.

Kim had softened his grip on Chay's wrist and slowly glided under to capture the younger's smaller hands in his, allowing his fingers to mingle their way in between the folds of the younger's soft fingers. Chay allowed the older to take his hand, unconsciously gripping the older in satisfaction.

At the soft ding of the elevator door opening, the two made their way out on to the floor. The floor contained two apartments, both facing one another along the corridor. The two entry doors into their respective apartments, face each other, with clear glass doors that allowed to see into the individual apartments. Kim's looked dark, the walls seeming to hold no stories. Even with the lights in the hallway which reflected into the doorway, the space looked empty, as if it had no owner, whilst the younger's doorway was painted in white with a picture of a little puppy hung on it, capturing the contrasting difference of the two. Halting at the front door, Chay let out a soft yawn, misty tears clouding his vision. The younger felt exhausted, feeling very much emotionally drained. His emotional turmoils from today were mostly due to Kim and his rollercoaster of emotions. Finally feeling the tiredness also catching up to him, Chay rubbed his eyes, looking up into the elder's stoic look, consciously watching every action of Chay's.

"Phi... I'm tired" Chay mentioned, letting out a soft puff of air. The older felt enchanted by the younger's cuteness, a soft smile venturing its way over to Kim. Kim's free hand captured the soft locks of the younger, caressing the younger's wild hair, loving his fingers getting tangled in the soft curls. Responding with a soft hmm, Kim pulled the younger closer to himself, giving Chay all a millisecond to register Kim's clinginess.

Chay landed in Kim's chest with a soft thud, sleep completely leaving his body. The older nestled into his favourite spot on Chay's neck and inhaled the soft vanilla smell that lingered the younger.

"Phi.. you tired too?" The younger asked, his voice getting muffled by Kim's shirt. The older let out a soft chuckle, loving the concern that ran across Chay's words. Hoping to get his way with the younger, the older responded, "Phi is very tired... will Chay let Phi stay with him?" a mischief smirk further nestling into the younger's neck.

"Phi..." gasped Chay, registering the elder's request. The younger pushed on Kim's chest, Chay's signature blush capturing his chubby cheeks. The younger looked down at the floor, unable to meet the elder's eyes as if it was him who requested to stay the night with the older. Suddenly wanting to crawl into his bed sheets and yell into a pillow, Chay pulled on his hands that are still tightly intertwined in the elder's grip.

"Babba..." the ever so enchanting words left the elder. In between the sleep deprivation and the overwhelming emotions of love emitted from the older, the younger felt overwhelmed, feeling burdened. Afraid, tired, and fully sleep deprived, soft sniffles poured out of the younger, tears pooling in his eyes.

Panic ran through the older, suddenly at a loss for the younger's change of emotions. Kim's eyebrows knotted, his hands cupping the younger in his own whilst forcing him to face Kim.

"Chay... Babba.. What's wrong? Tell me?" concern emitted through the elder's words. Kim searched for an answer in the tear pooled eyes of the younger, getting distracted by the long eyelashes clumping together in his tears whilst managing to look even prettier in Kim's eyes. The younger's cries got louder, his breathing becoming uneven. Afraid to break his little doll, Kim wiped the tears with his thump whilst whispering soft comforting words to the younger, hoping the younger would quickly come down from the high of emotions. Chay avoided the elder's gaze, looking anywhere but at the eyes that held all Chay's world.

"Chay, please don't look away from me" Kim felt himself physically hurt seeing Chay avoid his gaze, feeling as if the younger did not trust him to see his vulnerabilities.

"Chay..."

"You don't have to stay with me if you don't want to. Phi won't force you; I promise." Spoke Kim, his eyes searching for a response from the younger, feeling guilt for forcing the younger to stay with him when he was not ready.

"I... do ... want.. to stay .. with Phi" responded Chay through a trail of hiccups and sniffles, feeling bad for making Kim think he was at fault. Chay was very aware that Kim could never make him cry, not intentionally at least. The older shows nothing but kindness to the younger, that at times, it feels unreal, as if he does not deserve it. So when the older makes requests such as to stay with him, Chay is lost in the feelings of wanting the older and the contradicting feelings that he does not deserve the elder.

"Chay... are you sure you are okay with this?" Kim finally met the younger's eyes, sounding stern, his voice dripping an octave. Kim himself is not in the right mindset to leave the younger alone, specially seeing the younger's current state. Chay nod his head in response, still trying to catch his breath.

"Are you certain?" Kim wanted to double check. Though he did not want to leave the younger, he will die before he did something the younger man did not approve.

"I need words Chay" Kim sounded impatient, wanting the younger to give him the heads up to have him cuddled against him.

"yes..." a soft, raspy whisper gave permission for the older to finally take the younger into his room. Though this was not how he waned their first night together to start, Kim would not complain having Chay all to himself through the day and now into the night..

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Hey guys,

This one is a short chapter, and i am very sorry about that. I will try my best for a longer chapter next week. Let me know what you guys are feeling so far about the story. Till next week :).

Thathsi