Our Secret Little Rendezvous

Chapter 30 - Maybe, Maybe Not

Written by My Little Blue Bird, oozingchemistry_

Penelopes POV 

That's it. 

Of course that's it, because why should I ever deserve to be happy for more than five minutes? If I'd never had said...well thought that I loved him we would be cuddling happily ever after, but no, I have to ruin it. 

Love has to ruin it. 

He has to ruin it. Why is he even here? I should relax, nothing is ruined...just a little complication, but I'm not stupid, things that are good never stay good. I'm going to lose him if not now, then tomorrow or some other day when I thought nothing could go wrong. 

I have to say something, anything. I'm absolutely no help right now, and it's not fair to let him deal with MY brother. Who lacks the ability to understand anything that doesn't revolve around him. If we changed the situation, and he'd been the one sitting here, there would be no screaming, no discussion and no need to worry. 

Or is it just me? Maybe I worry too much. 

Perhaps I don't need to worry, at least not now. That's Ollie we're talking about, he would never hurt me. Right? Still, if I had told him about everything right at the beginning we wouldn't be sitting here, or maybe we would have been in this situation long ago. Before I fell in love with Oliver. Before...everything. But I was afraid of exactly what is happening right now...well, is it even happening? I can't tell. 

I should speak up. Tell him to be quite, it's none of his business who I date, he is just my brother, it's not like he ever did anything to help me. But he is my brother and Oliver's best friend, telling him to be quite wouldn't be nice and helpful. 

I can understand him being mad, somehow. I would hate seeing Micah and Ava date, especially if they didn't tell me about it, so I can understand. But I wouldn't say the things he just said. Well...screamed, definitely got Mom's temper. I wouldn't scream nor would I make them break up, I would just be upset that no one told me. And not even that upset.

But it's not like I would have to worry if I ever see them trying to kill each other, I would be less surprised than seeing them talk friendly to each other. Wait, wrong subject. My mind loves to drive off and think about other stuff, what was I thinking again? Right, I can understand my brothers' madness, at least a little. 

Nothing has happened yet. 

Not completely, I just probably destroyed an important friendship forever for something what will not last forever. I'm a shitty person. We're not in a romance novel where everything has a solution, nothing has a solution every good thing ends at some point, and it's my fault to suppose otherwise. I as a writer and reader should have seen this coming, the brother always finds out. Always. 

"Penelope!" I look at Micah who is screaming at me, for something that is none of his business, why is he here again? Say something. Tell him to stop screaming at you. Don't freeze, not again. "Penelope! Goddamn it, answer me!" He screams even louder, and I'm again not saying anything. I have a voice I should use, he has no right to scream at me like this. Why do I let people scream at me? "Penelo-" Stop screaming, please. But Oliver didn't let him finish. I suppose he also was getting tired of all the screaming, 

"Shut up! Please... Just shut up. At least for a second" He says exactly what I wanted to say, what I should've said. 

"You don't tell me to shut up!" Does he have to be so loud? 

"Stop screaming, Micah. It doesn't help with anything." I finally speak up, in a low voice, maybe. But at least I say something.

"Look who now finally can speak for themselves. The fuck are you doing in his bed." He isn't screaming anymore his voice still sounds annoyed, he shouldn't be the one annoyed, he has no right to be annoyed at me. "Perhaps we should all get up and move out of the bedroom, this doesn't appear to be a good room for a fight. Especially with us sitting and you standing" He says calmly, even after Micah just had punched him in the face.