background info: you and vada were in the bathroom together when the shooting happened. you've hanging out with vada more and started crushing on her. ......
I'm telling Vada how I feel about her today. This is going to be horrible, because she doesn't like me, I think. I don't know if she does. I just can't keep those feelings. I'm madly in love with her. It's definitely going to ruin our friendship.
I'm already at Vada's house. I've been sitting in my car thinking too much about all this. Is it worth the risk? Is this going to ruin our friendship? Does he feel the same way? I'm an idiot. All these thoughts roam my head. I'm probably thinking too much.
If it doesn't go well, then it's fine. Things don't always happen the way you want.
I got out of my car and walked to the front door. I call. "Hey y/n." her mom opens the door smiling. "Hello Mrs. Cavell." I say giving her a big hug. "What are you doing here?" She asks hugging me. "I came to pick up Vada, we were going to hang out" I say. What her mom doesn't know is that we go back to my house and get drunk or high together. "Oh ok then, come in and I can go get her." She says breaking the hug. "Ok."I answer plainly.She starts walking to the her room. I close the front door and start going up the couch.
I see Vada come back with her mom trailing behind her. "Hi y/n!" Vada says, and I go to say hey but she cuts me off.. "Is it fine if Quinton is with us?"
"I don't mind" but I in fact did mind. I mean we planned this like last week and she never mentioned anything about him.
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We are at the park right now walking around and i've basically become a third-wheel. She's said not one thing to me, neither did he. Other than "Hey y/n." like wtf, you are being included on this and all I get is a 'hey'. I'm just glad he didn't ride in the car with us cause it would've been annoying asf.
I was walking a few steps behind them when I spotted Mia Reed. We've been best friends since childhood and since the shooting we've kinda drifted apart but we both know why, so I decided to say hey cause she looked lonely, but I can't really say anything I've been third-wheeling this whole time. "Hey." She put her hand over her heart and then I realize I scared her so I giggled at her. She said hey back and we started a conversation, and I looked around and realize that Vada and Quinton were way head of me. Mia sees where I'm staring and some how that gets their attention. And what Mia did next was wayyyyy unexpected. She turned around whispered,"Follow my lead." in my ear and just kissed me.. but i went a long with it like she said. And after she just told me to go walk past them and not say anything.
When I walked away I noticed them staring at me, I just walked pass them back to my car. Vada is coming to my car but then Quinton calls her over. I saw them talking but could careless, like they could careless that I was existing right now. Vada then came to the car and got in, I gave her the aux and she asked if we could go to my house. I already knew what was gonna happen so I just nodded my head.
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When we arrived we immediately went for the alcohol and blunt. We were drink and getting high when I decided that it was a good idea to confess..
"I have to tell you something," I say with an anxious look. "Ok.." she says sitting on his bed. I sit next to her.
"Um, it's okay, so I-" I say before being cut by Vada. "Wait, I have a big question. I'm very sorry to interrupt you, but I think I like someone. Any advice?" she asks. My heart falls to the ground. Oh. I think in my head. "Oh! Who?" I ask with a small smile. "It's Quinton," she smiles. "Oh, okay, um, just tell him the truth. Tell him how you really feel." I say looking at the floor. "Thank you very much! You're the best," she smiles giving me a hug. "What were you going to say?" she asks.
"Oh, it's nothing! You shouldn't worry about it anymore ," I smile a little awkwardly. "No, it's fine! You can tell me" she takes my hand. "oh, okay, um, it's-" I say before she interrupts me again. "He a text message!! HE FEELS THE SAME WAY!!" she smiles and gives me a big hug. "Thank you very much for the advice," she says.
"Correct, no problem." I say in a low voice. "I'm very sorry, you can say it now," she apologized. "Honestly, it's nothing. I think you should leave Vada, see you later?" I say get up. "and y/n wait!", she says. "what vada? it doesn't make sense for me to tell you that i have feelings for you. you gave me all these mixed signals, so you gave me the wrong idea.I was wrong, my thoughts were wrong. That's what I was going to say. As I said, you have to go, Vada," I ranted. "What?" She says. "Oh, fuck. I'm so sorry! I didn't want to make you feel that way. Please don't let this ruin our friendship," she says.
"It's okay, it's not your fault." I say quietly. "I had no idea that you felt that way. I just don't see you but a friend. I like Quinton, but your no more than a friend y/n," she says, trying to improve it. "It's okay. Can you leave now?" I'm asking. "Yes, I'm just going to leave you alone.." she says.
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i rewrote this cause i didnt like it so yea but i'm sorry for not posting i have just been stressed with soccer then the eoc and i'm finished with all that
