𝐟𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧. eita otoya

⁰⁴ | 1st of 01, year 2021

to my dearest,

otoya eita, pleasant new year's eve. this letter will probably reach you a little later than usual, it may even race with time as the clock strikes midnight and concludes the new year. although my grandfather had promised to deliver this letter to the post office as soon as he could, i told him to complete any errands he had before continuing because i didn't want to put any additional pressure on him. never would i want to make him feel that he's obligated to fulfill my requests or service me, either. he's so kind and sweet, so much that i really do believe i caught a glimpse of the man my grandma used to tell me tales about. he's just like you, eita. i really, truly wish i had been able to attend the festival today since the morning before, i daydreamed about scenarios in which i may run into you inside the property where the festival was being hosted. i practically begged them to let me outside for even a split second so i could take in the spectacular fireworks display and to turn those daydreams into reality, but to no avail. i said before that it was okay if they didn't agree with my wishes, and even though i knew how they would respond, i still fell upset about it. i lost track of the number of times i frowned and sighed to myself as i moped around, sulking.

this same evening, i stared as the fireworks flashed in front of my eyes; dazzling more brighter and more colorfully than the christmas fireworks display. it fired a flawless pink heart following a tiny green heart inside it just before the display finished. i couldn't help but think of both of us-you and i. the number of times you expressed a desire to spend each new year's eve with me and ring in the new year with me, as well as your desire to sit next to me in a grassy field and watch a perfectly executed heart-shaped spectacle in the sky, immediately came to mind. i sensed your presence even if you weren't by my side. did you experience that, too? it was incredibly magical, so i sincerely hope you did. well, the new year is almost here; i can't continue to write to you in such a miserable manner and providing sob stories in each letter, i feel you'd find them a bore if i do.

once more, my family came to visit; it's great fun to have them here. i felt less isolated. we had frozen strawberries and grape tanghulus in the afternoon; they were delicious. it has a really sweet flavor! to bite them was difficult, but challenges are always worthwhile when they involve food, lol. my family stayed in my room with me until 11 p.m. given that they had been told that i had to stay inside because i had spent the past night outside on the rooftop that christmas day, and they felt it would be dangerous for me to go outside too frequently. although spending the new year's day in a room with an isolated atmosphere like mine was monotonous, the fact that they chose to stay with me makes me feel incredibly cherished. i adore them, however, not as much as i love you. >.< i hope this year goes great for you. once again,

i love you, otoya eita.

sincerely,
n/n