Dear diary,
Today, I just feel like giving up… Nothing helps anymore. Whether it's Tsukasa trying to help me or just me searching for methods to get out of this situation, it just doesn't work.
Today was the day I said to myself "I'm going to end this now" as I stood with a knife in my hands, pointing at my chest, thinking about nothing. Not thinking about the people who say they will be sad if I disappear, which I don't agree with in the slightest. My disappearance will just make everyone who I hurt over the years happy. My disappearance is something that will never be remembered. I'll just be lying on my coffin, 6 feet underground and the tomb says "Here lies Asahina Mafuyu" and nothing more. No one will remember me. No one at all, but I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
I don't care anymore…
My head is spinning as intrusive thoughts emerge from the darkness… but everything will be in the past… if I end my life now… the future might be better for everyone else.
Yes…that's it… I see. I'm the problem. I'm the problem here…
I can't stop laughing at the thought. My theory has come out to be nothing but true…
YOU ARE READING
Mafuyu's Diary
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