not so fond

i promise.

After you had left Neteyam you found yourself making your way back home, your day had already been ruined. Once your home came into view you saw your father coming out of it. "Y/N" He called out also seeing you. "Where have you come from?" "I was with Kiri in the lake." You responded innocently voice low. Your father said nothing but nodded placing his large hand on top of your damp braids smiling warmly at you. "Go in eat breakfast syulang (flower) and then you must go to the Sully tent." You bit your tongue causing it to bleed slightly, you had almost forgotten you were ordered by Jake to look after the ikrans today with Neteyam. Annoyance flushed your veins but you relaxed again as the fast realisation that you were under your fathers gaze emerged. "Okay." was all that you were able to muster without cursing Neteyam or the idea out. You parted ways your father leaping on large branches and out of view and you entering the hut. "Rewon yayo (Morning bird) Come eat." Your mother greeted as she beckoned you to sit next to your younger brothers who were already awake. Your eyes met with Sezans who looked back at you with great concern. You brushed it off and sat down beside him praying to Eywa he wouldn't mention last night. Only she knows what excuse you would've made to defend yourself against his words, you were supposed to strong, a warrior, no fear, your brothers couldn't lose another sibling especially to insanity rather than death. "Sezan why did you leave the bed yesterday?" Lorno asked innocently playing with his food, your eyes shot up to look at Sezan who's ears had perked up at the question. Your heart pounded against your small ribcage, mind racing with every single possible thought you could muster. "I was thirsty and asked Y/N for water." He lied. You released a small breath whilst he held one in. Sez had never lied, not to you, not to his brother or parents, to anyone. " Sez nga zene näk pay sre hahaw."(You must drink water before sleep.) Your mother huffed ruffling her gentle fingers through his braids whilst wiping the left over food dripping from Lornos mouth and tsking. "I know mom." He said trying to hide his guilt he felt for lying to his mother. He looked up at you with somber eyes as if he blamed you for what he had just done. You felt a pang in your chest, you couldn't let him carry what he felt was like the world on his shoulders. You took in a deep breath before you confessed. "No mother, I had the dream again." You paused voice strained before looking up at her as she whipped her head towards you nearly snapping her neck eyes as wide as could be. "Sezan helped me." You finished looking into his eyes seeing them relax and thank you. "I'm sorry ma yawne (My beloved) im sorry I am so so sorry i wish you'd told me they started again." She cooed rushing over to hug you and pull your head close to her chest rubbing the side of your face with the pad of her thumbs. She knew what it was like as she was the first to help you after the nightmare had first occurred. You were 13, nine months after Tl'ezan had died, you woken up screaming his name immediately waking up your mother who was the only one home as your father and brothers were away. It was a sound that frightened your mother thinking she had lost another child was a pain she could not bear. Both of you released heavy tears that night and every time it would occur you would alert her the morning after or in the middle of the night if you were afraid to fall back asleep. Until she brought up taking you to Tsahìk, You refused. She wouldn't be able to tell you what was wrong, she was a healer of the body not the mind. Besides it would make you look weak, Warrior who has nightmares and cries for her mother, it was pathetic. Since that day you had stopped letting her know about the nightmares allowing her to think they had stopped with age and time. You both also had never mentioned it to your father, You didn't know why your mom didn't say anything but you were glad she didn't. He would've tried to "fix" you.
Your mother kissed your forehead before bringing it down to her own. "oe tìyawn nga." (I love you) she said softly eyes burning into yours. Warming into your mothers grasp you turned to Sezan who continued eating his food contently. "Thank you Sez." You said reaching to hold on of his hands that rested on the table. He smiled back at you with his teeth that were covered in bits of spartan fruit that your mother had served you guys for breakfast. You all chuckled at his cuteness. "You are a brave boy Sez." Your mother chimed in obviously reminiscing of her late son. "Hey i am too!" Lorno added causing more laughter to erupt from the 4 of you. "Ahhh Yes you are Lo' yes you are." You said through laughter.