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chapter thirteen : don't blow up

Harry had spent everyday by our side since Rosie got sick. He stepped in to help me more than he already had been. Picking her up, taking her to daycare. We gave up on hiding from Eric, there was no point to it. He would find out one way or another.

Today was one of those mornings where Harry had taken Rosie to daycare for me, so that I could sleep longer. We had spent the night at his house and as much as I missed my mom, I loved being here.

I felt the bed dip slightly, soon the warmth of his body could be felt on me. I smiled as he leaned down and kissed my cheek softly.

"Morning pretty." He whispered softly and I smiled, turning my body to lay flat so I could face him, rubbing my eyes. I peeked my eyes open at him and smiled.

"Morning handsome." I smiled and he chuckled, leaning down and kissing me. It was soft at first, but then eager almost, his tongue finding mine.

I broke the kiss and giggled, "Mmm, someone woke up in a mood."

"A very good mood. I also, just, appreciate you." He said softly, lowering his head down and kissing down my neck. His tongue gently drawing a pattern his lips would soon suck on.

"I can't keep hiding any marks you leave, it's getting warmer." I giggled and he laughed. He moved down my body, taking the comforter with him. His face hovered over my stomach and he lifted my shirt a bit, taking a bite into my skin.

"I'll just go places other people can't see." He said against my skin, and I shivered slightly as his hot breath hit it.

He moved back over me, kissing me deeply, his hands wrapping around me and mine around him. He reached down, slipping under the elastic band of my shorts and underwear, his fingers over my sensitive nerves, moving slowly and teasingly on it. I closed my eyes under his touch, remembering the first time, remembering how he brought me to a place no one ever had.

I moved my hand over him, slipping past the band of his sweats and wrapping my hand around his already hard length. He groaned, his pace moving faster on me. We both moved on each other like we wouldn't have enough time to get to the place we wanted. It didn't take long for our clothes to be off our bodies, for him to be pushing inside me.

Unfortunately, today was one of those days for me, where it felt good until it didn't. I felt myself wince as he pushed in deep, the pain shooting up my stomach. I grabbed at his arms, pushing him off me slightly and he stopped immediately.

"Hey, hey, I'm sor—it not your fault, it just happens." I inhaled deeply and he nodded, pulling out of me slowly. He moved to lay next to me, my hands wrapping around my lower stomach.

His hand moved my arms gently, massaging softly at my lower stomach. My eyes met his, and I smiled softly. In all the times this had happened, he's been the only one to soothe me immediately. To not get upset or try to immediately leave.

We stayed this way for a while, the pain slowly subsiding from my lower tummy. I looked over at him and smiled.

Harry Styles, what are you doing to me?

I leaned and kissed him softly, resting my forehead on his, "Let me try again." I whispered and he shook his head.

"Maddy it's ok—I want too. Please." I said, shifting our bodies so I was on top. I sat on his thighs, my hands wrapping around him, helping him get hard again, though it didn't take much. I wanted to fight past the pain for him. I found myself lately wanting to do a lot just for him.

"Hand me a condom, Harry." I said softly and he searched my eyes, before shifting a bit under me and reaching for the condom. He took it out of its packaging, slipping it on himself.

I lifted my body, aligning him with my opening and slowly slipping him in. It hurt, causing me to close my eyes as I slipped further. I kept lowering myself further on him, up and down, trying to adjust. His hands were quickly on my hips, stopping my movements.

"Madeline, it's okay. Baby, it's okay." He said so softly, my eyes opening and meeting his. His left hand reaching up on my cheek. Him calling me baby made my heart clench in a way I hadn't felt from him.

I leaned down, to kiss him, in doing so, pushing him further in me. I groaned softly, concentrating on kissing him, as I began to move slowly on him. As I paid more attention to our kiss, I found myself feeling more pleasure from him inside me. Any pain, was faint, almost nonexistent.

He wrapped his arms around me, tightly, breaking the kiss to kiss down my neck, and soon his hips were rolling up into mine. He took over the movements, quick thrusts.

"It's feels good Harry, god, it feels good." I breathed into his hair as we kept clinging to each other, his lips moving back to my own. I was too scared to move from this position, to scared to create that pain, so I stayed here.

We moved against each other, clinging tighter each time until we came undone. My hands wrapped around his shoulders, my moans muffled into his neck. I calmed my breath, gripping onto his shoulders as I slowly pulled out.

"Fuck Maddy." He said, his eyes rolling back as I did.

I chuckled softly, falling into the pillow next to him. I peeked over at him and he smiled, kissing me softly before laying back flat.

"I have to use the bathroom, but I can't feel my legs." He said and I laughed, grabbing my stomach.

"You got this, Haz, I believe in you." I said, giggling. He chuckled, turning to me one more time before moving to get up out of bed. I took a deep breath, sinking under the covers.

"Mads..." I heard Harry say, and I peeked out.

"Yeah?" I said, getting a good look of his face. He stood there in his briefs, looking nervous almost, "Is everything okay?"

"Uh...I went to take off the condom, and clean up, and...there was blood on me. Are you okay?" He said, and I felt my eyes widen.

I quickly took the comforter and sheets off of me. On the bottom sheet was small blood spots and I quickly got up, holding the comforter to me, "I...um, I must be near my period. I'm sorry, I didn't think that would happen."

I felt my chest heavy and he moved to me quickly, holding my face, "Hey, it happens, I just was worried because it hurt, I wanted to make sure you were okay."

I nodded a bit, "Yeah, I'm...I'm going to go clean up, make sure everything is fine." I smiled small, moving to push past him and he stopped me.

"Hey, not like that. Come here," he said, pulling me to his lips and kissing me gently, "You are the best thing that's ever happened to me in a pair of sheets."

He chuckled and I shook my head laughing a bit, "You're just saying that to make me feel better."

"No, I mean it...hell, and think you and Rosie are the best thing to happen to me....ever." He smiled, in a way that broke my heart. In a way that seemed to hand the wrong person the detonator to our beautiful disaster.

Please don't blow up, not yet.

"You're truly the best thing to happen to Rosie and I, in a long time Harry." I said softly and he kissed me again.

"Maddy...let me...please jus—Harry, don't. Please. Please just leave it be." I said, closing my eyes and resting my forehead on his chin.

He took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, kissing the top of my head, "Okay."

I peeked up, and kissed him soft and quick, "I'm going to go clean up, and then, I'm craving a burger from Sal's. My treat?"

He chuckled and nodded, "Sounds like a date. Go. Go."

I kissed him once more and headed out to the bathroom to clean up and change.