𝐉𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒||𝐄.𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐑

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y/n l/n

I've called him a couple times. He won't answer. Sent him a couple messages too. Seems he's always on DND now. I wanna talk to him about this. So I did the only logical thing I could do. Some may say I'm crazy, but idgaf.

I pulled up to his dorm.

I've been here quite a few times. I even have a key. Once I pull up there I walk up to the top floor. With every step my anxiety spikes up more and more. My palms are in a cold sweat. My legs feel like they are going to go numb. I stand in front of the door and I can't move my hand to the door knob. I'm telling my body to open the door, but there's no response.

I try to breathe and calm my nerves. It's not working. I'm too nervous of what he'll say or do. I don't even know if he's home. I've treated him like he was nothing to me for so long that I bet once he opens this door he'll slam right back into my face. I've done that once or twice to him.

God the knock on door y/n, stop acting like a fucking coward.

Guess that kicked some sense into me because I quickly lifted my fist to the door to knock before I chickened out altogether and ran away. Before I could Connie opened the door. His eyes widened at me, but his lips formed a smirk on his face.

This is the one motherfucker I was hoping I didn't have to see again.

"we'll hello princess. come here cause you missed me didn't you?" I wanna smack that smug smirk off his lips.

for some background information i did mess with Connie a little. When I was getting too close to Eren he was the one I was calling. He felt like a breath of fresh air and it felt good to piss Jolene off. "Where's Eren?" I asked, trying to look behind him.

"out on a little lunch date. but if you need some good dick i can provide" what did he mean Eren was out on a lunch date? Yesterday he just said to me he was basically in love with me. To fucking think i was nervous to come talk to this man. I should've fucking known.

"Wanna go out?"

I actually had a lot of fun with Connie. He made me forget about Eren. We got lunch, went shopping and then got ice cream. I did take pictures to post on my insta, so Eren hopefully sees and gets jealous. Connie is more of a friend than a old fuck buddy. He knows that i started fucking with him to piss of Jolene. But he didn't care because he was doing the same thing. He told me he did it to piss off Eren and Jolene when we first started fucking I never asked why but maybe i should now.
"Why don't you fuck with Eren anymore? Back in highschool you were friends". Connie sighed. He looked at me like he was trying to create a lie. "Tell me the truth Con" I basically was begging. I've grown so tired of people lying to me. "Because" he paused and sighed. "Jolene and him had a thing going on in the summer before we started college. I forgave him for the shit, but I've seen him texting her mad times still".

Once again Eren Yeager has fucked me over and made me look like the fucking fool again. Did he really lie to me all this time? I told him about Connie. Whatever, I messed with one of his friends. But he goes and starts fucking with the bitch that stabbed me in the back to be popular and get a man? How fucking pathetic of him. I didn't say anything to Connie, I just drove him off and then drove off. I broke up with him for a fucking good reason. I should've fucking know better than to trust this nigga again. He's still the same lame ass playboy he was in highschool and that shit is just pathetic. I came all the way to his place to tell him how bad I felt about everything I've been doing to him and how I want to re-patch this.

I drove right to the closest bar I could find.

I went in there and I drank. I didn't want to cry. I dont want to waste tears over a nigga like him. I've done enough of that. Then I got a text from him. It read "I'm sorry for ghosting you, can we talk?" I laugh. I took even more shots after that. Him and Jolene messed up so much of my life. The only real person I've ever had in my life is Hailey. I tried to text her to come get me. Very scrambled message. Scrambled. Scrammmmmbleeeeed. What a funny word.

I black out after that.

I woke up to the smell of food. my head was throbbing. my eyes burned when the light hit them. God, why is the sun so bright? "y/n get your drunk ass up right now". Hailey stood above me with Heaven on her hip and a spatula in her other hand.

I just groaned and rolled away. she yanks the cover off of me and smacks me with the spatula. I launched up. no way this bitch just hit me with a spatula. "So you're going to tell me why Floch is calling me from your phone, telling me you're so drunk you can't even stand?" She's angrier tapping her foot waiting for an answer. "Eren slept with Jolene and has been texting her since the summer we broke up?" I said bluntly.

Her face softens, she puts Heaven down and sits next to me on the couch. I lean against her and she wraps her arm around me. "How'd you find out?" "Connie," my voice cracks. Tears start to cloud my vision.

"I fell for it again. Eren Yeager tricked me again" the tears fell down my face. Hailey wiped my tears and stood up. "Come on. You need to eat something" she helped me up and I walked to the table. Heaven had her hard plastic knife and fork in her hands waiting for her breakfast. I'm so glad Hailey kept the baby even though back then life was awful back in highschool.

Hailey gave us both pancakes and a glass of orange juice. "You know Eren is a waste of space. Maybe this is a sign to fully drop him". I slightly nodded and ate my pancakes. Eren truly did amaze me though. He genuinely had me believing that he was sorry. This whole time I thought I was using him when really he was using me.

Maybe he finds entertainment in my suffering.

That has to be the reason. If he really cared about me he never would've slept with Jolene or kept texting her. I can't lie to myself and say I hate him. I don't hate him. I couldnt if I tried.

Because even though his love might have been fake this whole time, it still made me feel like I was the most special person in the world to him.

Instead of focusing on the bad memories I'll focus on the good ones. It was time that I moved on for good from Eren yeager.

i've been gone for so long. but y'all are getting lots of chapters 🫶🏾.

y/n l/n
Hey Floch, thank you for calling
Hailey for me last night.
You really saved my ass.