Finding Mr. Knight (DDLB) | ✔️

19.

A/N - Sorry for the wait, but here's an extra long chapter to make up for it (◕‿◕✿)

I didn't fully edit yet, so if there are any spelling mistakes at all, please feel free to comment!
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A few days passed since I've moved in to my new apartment and a few days since I've seen Alek. Well, he did stop by the bar yesterday during my break, but that wasn't even a full hour!

I got really busy with work at the bar the last couple of days so it's been hard to do really anything, but it's also made me so tired! What made up for not really seeing Alek was him texting me all freaking day!

I'm the type of person who responds to messages quickly, but Alek was even faster than me! I'm surprised he wants to talk to me so much! Some were so simple too whether it was him asking me what I had for lunch, or how just how my day was.

He'd always beat me at sending good morning texts and he called me every day of the week so far! The fourth day he called me, he was saying some really dirty things. I wanted to touch myself so badly but I've never done that on the phone with anyone before. I got so nervous!

Even though I didn't get to sleep in his arms, talking to him until I fell asleep made it feel like he was really there with me. Holding me, touching me. . . It made it hard not to tell Alek that I love him.

I just love everything about him. He's kind, he cares about me and I feel like he actually wants to see me rather than Adam. I don't hate many people, but I hate him. Alek doesn't make me feel like I'm  a burden.

He's barely been on my mind since things ended between us and it makes me really happy. He hurt my feelings all the time and I wish things ended sooner, but I don't know. Maybe I'm just a little naïve when it comes to certain things. Even though he hurt me, I still felt safe being with Adam, but thinking about it makes me wonder if I was just not wanting to be alone. I forgot how lonely it can be.

It's just boring watching movies by yourself and making dinner all alone, but I haven't had to do that much since I made friends. I love them too, they're my whole world.

When I saw Chris the next day he was being very standoffish towards me and I really didn't like it. I cried in the bathroom during my lunch break until someone came in. That someone ended up being Chris, of course. At that point he cried because I was crying and I cried even more because Chris was crying. We were a mess, but we hugged and talked it out a little bit.

It still feels like something's off between us but it's better. I just haven't been sharing anything with him about Alek, even though all I want is to tell him how happy and loved I feel, but I just don't think he'll be very happy for me. It makes me sad.

I told Fox about it because he's also my best friend, but I've always felt more connected with Chris. Maybe because he was my first real friend and the first person to actually want to speak with me. It was nice telling someone though. Fox was really happy for me. He let me go on for hours while I talked about Alek. It's easy now that they know about us.

I got really nervous for my date tonight so I invited Fox over to help me get dressed. I was too tired to pick something out last night and if I did it on my own today, I know I'll never be ready for tonight. I worked really early today so I could leave at three. That gives me three hours to get ready. I just hope we have enough time.

I was just just putting on my fuzzy pajamas and drying my hair when there was a knock on the door, letting me know Fox was here.

I ran and opened the door, tightly wrapping my arms around him before he could get a word in.