Chapter Twenty Three
My room is like a trash, I look like a trash well as always. My things are on the floor and I also am on the floor smelling like a blood. I slowly stand up and closed my damn curtains because it is hurting my eyes and skin. I look at my floor and saw blood to where I was lying recently. I hold my head but nothing hurts except for some throbbing because some memories are flashing back.
I sat back on my bed really weak with some memories of mine and Gilinsky flashing through my mind like a fucking movie that really hurts my head like eating me whole.
"I know you're my bestfriend and we're still young and you'll just be turning fifteen in just thirty minutes.. I know this sounds crazy but please, will you be my girl?" Jack sincerely ask me with his hopeful eyes while holding my hands so tight. I look at his eyes with hesitation on mine because I don't know, he is my bestfriend for years now, I used to hate him when we're still kids and it really is a pleasure for me that we kept things up. What if he hurt me? I'll just lost my bestfriend.. This is so wrong.
"I know you're hesitating but I promise, I won't hurt you. That'll be the last thing I'll ever do.. Trust me, lyn.. You won't lose me, I promise. If you'll give me that sweet yes then I'll be the best boyfriend slash bestfriend ever.. Trust me with this one, lyn" He said with his pursuading sweet voice and pleading eyes. I closed my eyes thinking about the consequences and I really can't take the fact that what if someday he found someone? Then, I'll lost my bestfriend who is there for me through ups and downs
"I'll take that as no.. I'll leave you here so you can think for yourself.. If ever you change your mind, you know where to find me.. I'll be there, waiting for you.. I love you, lyn.. I always will" He shakingly said leaving me there like he's a ninja or something because he is already gone before I could even utter a word. I do like him and I know that I'm ready but the consequences are killing me and making me to back out. I'm afraid to lose him, I don't want to lose him
I untug the necklace on my dress revealing the plastic ring that Gilinsky gave me when we're still eight and I've been wearing this for eight years and so on.. He gave me this bending down his one knee asking me to be his wife and of course, I agreed. He said that he'll give me a gold one like the ring of my dreams when we are old enough.
I remember that we got along because of my father, the time that they said he 'died'. Jack is there for me saying that everything will gonna be okay but the truth is no, everything is gonna be a mess. He help me get through that day..
I stand up and went to where I know he could be not bothering to tell my mom where I'am going. I went to that parking lot thingy place where we always do videos because I know he'll be star gazing and I was right. He is standing there with his back on me so I run and hug him so tight from his back with tears slipping down my eyes.
"You came, just one minute right before your birthday" He said chuckling and hugging me back. I snake my arms on his neck while looking up on his eyes and him looking down at me, damn tall guys. He leaned down and kiss me softly while the firework display started to play from nearly here. His kiss gave tingles on my lips and shivers down through my spine that is making me moan in pleasure. I pulled away with his forehead on mine and both of us are smiling like a crazy maniacs and broke into fit laughter
"So, I'll take that as a yes?" Gilinsky said with his teasing voice and I nodded my head with a smile on my face not knowing what to say because that is a great kiss.
"Aww, but I want it to come out to your pretty good mouth" He quietly said with his breath touching my sensitive skin that made me moan and he chuckled in process so I slap his arms playfully
