truth or dare || south park ||

i didnt want to hurt wendy

|| stans pov ||

I was at my locker, but my eyes were darting everywhere looking for wendy. I entered my locker code in,, kyles birthday,, he has his as mine. It was something we did when we first became super best friends!

I finally saw her, her slick, black hair hung low beneath her head, and she looked so incredibly pretty.
"hey wendy!,, I said
"oh hey stan!,, she smiled
phew, so she hadn't saw the picture.

we drifted apart for our next lessons as the bell was about to go, but before I could turn around a hand grabbed me and pulled me away. I noticed wendy follow and watch from a corner.

"stan..,, kyle whispered.
"kyle, are you alright..?,, I asked, concerned
"there's something I really need to tell you.,,
he took put his phone, and I saw him click on discord messages with someone called fatass, clearly cartman. he scrolled up a little until the most shocking thing ever came upon my eyes. I knew I kissed a guy and it was bad, but it was my best friend?! and he KNEW?!

"fuck.." he sighed. "I like you, stan. I've liked you for some time now.. i was just- in denial.
I wasn't mentioning the picture because I didn't want anything awkward between us.. and most importantly.. • I didn't wanna hurt wendy • ,,

I took a moment to process everything, but suddenly, words were coming out of my mouth before I could stop them.

"you're disgusting.. you know I'm with wendy, kyle. how would wendy feel if she knew this, your so fucking selfish kyle. you're only thinking about yourself, what about wend-,,

"why do you think I kept it to myself, stan..
I can't believe you're calling me selfish,
without knowing what I did to NOT hurt wendy.
you don't know stan, you never will.
if you think I'm SO selfish for liking you,,
then I'm sorry..? because its definitely MY fault that my heart feels this way.,,

the silence was so incredibly loud. I was about to speak but kyle did it for me.

"i- I know you feel uncomfortable now with this information.. so I'll be.. hanging out with.. cartman.. again
you're welcome, stan.
but, before I do.. thank you stan.
thank you for making me feel like I wasn't.. 
different.
i- I know your opinion on gay people now.. I really should of asked before.. but I never felt that way when I was with you, it didn't even come into my mind.
you made me feel.. really happy.
I've- never felt this joy jn a while..,,

"kyle.. could you just.. leave me alone...,,

kyle slowly turned around and walked away. I suddenly began to realise what impression I had just gave off, what a friendship I'd lost, and how I let my words take control.

"fuck..,,

"stan.,, he stopped, and turned his head.

"before I go.. I got more of you then I ever deserved.. if you never talk to me again, I just want you to know that I appreciate it.. and I appreciate you.
and I know you were hurt.. but then I realised that's just how you are, you know maybe I just need to stop expecting people to
be a good person so that way I won't get hurt... when they're not.,,

"oh..,, I said.

OH? WHY THE FUCK WOULD I SAY OH, COMFORT HIM, SAY SOMETHING NICE..

but before I knew it, kyle had took off his hat and tossed it on the floor, his ginger afro suddenly curled around his face. he let out a warm smile before walking away, he raised his hands to his face and then suddenly..  he was gone. I hadn't even heard the sounds of the bell but I guess nobody did because as I turned around to see if wendy was still there, all of the people in my 4th grade class were..

"shit.,,

told you guys there was angst, should I continue this?? idrk

words: 666 😨