A Little Too Much ( Shawn Mendes)

Hero...

I closed my eyes tightly then opened them again, turning around in my seat, standing there in a flannel, T-shirt, and Jeans and his guitar case in hand. " i- i um , you- Oh mon dieu " (oh my god) I said and slumped down in the chair and closed my eyes "est il allé encore" (is he gone yet)i asked after what felt like five years, and could possibly have been 2 minutes "No et je ne pars pas jusqu'à ce que vous me parler" Shawn said(No. and i am not leaving until you talk to me). i know he's right. i slowly got up and saw him. Standing there, waiting. i walked straight passed him and out the door, he walked behind me and closed the door,as he exited the apartment " Hi" i said nervously " hey" he responded, " so, i heard what you said" he said, as if i were going to kill him. " your dad seems fine" he said with a small laugh " yea. i'm sorry bout that, Cameron invited us to surprise you and i wasn't prepared, i don't talk... Productively to boys i like, i wasn't ready and then i look hideous right now, my dad took us to breakfast and told us to wear this and we looked really bad and oh my god im rambling " i said " look Mariah listen, i think you are really pretty and smart and cool, and amazing, but im touring right now, so how about we get to know each other and then if by the end of the tour we still like each other i'll ask you on a date, and i hope you'll say yes" he said " but maybe you might wanna go out with me today... as just friend's nothing serious " he said, adding the last part quickly " i would love to but i dont have any clothes" suddenly the door opened and there stood Darcy and Cameron " actually if you want we have outfits here you can wear " Cameron said, disregarding the fact that he was eavesdropping " 1.) Sure. 2.) STOP EAVESDROPPING!!!!" I said, making the two cover there ear's and Shawn chuckle. after shuffling through outfit after outfit with many pointless accessories. " I'm ready" i sang in my Spongebob voice as i exited the guest bedroom. " you look amazing" Hayes said, " Thanks, but do i wanna know why you have half of a girls wardrobe in there?" i asked " Oh that, that's Mahoganys room" Cameron said " Oh yea. it does feel a little LOXish , are you sure-"" shes fine with it, if she was here she would have shoved you in it her self, Now go have fun you crazy kids" Nash said.

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Shawn and i have been walking around for about a half an hour, just talking and joking, " So. Raul, what are your plans after this tour?" i asked, using his middle name. " Well, i might go back to Canada, but i know that im definitely gonna keep writing, its just that right now i have a massive writers block, but hey, its not fair for you to know my middle name and i don't know yours"he said. " well you are kinda famous, so one could easily Google your name, but you're right, my middle name is Cadence, i only let my close friends call me that though, nothing personal, but its like my treasure, something that i have" i said honestly " can i call you Cadence?" he asked, genuinely " someday " i said as a group of girls walked towards us. "wait a minute you're Shawn Mendes and you're Mariah Henderson, OH my god, i am such a big fan, oh oh uh um will you guys follow me on twitter? Wait are you guys a thing oh my god Shawn in all her videos she always talks about you-"" yea whats your twitter hun?" i asked her as she rambled on about my undying love for Shawn " oh its @LaceySingspanosa " she said as i typed the name on twitter she " you guys are a thing now?" one of her friends asked "no" i replied as her friend looked for her twitter on ,my phone " oh good, that would be a disastrous match" she said with her English accent (british) , i bit my lip, as a way to keep my self from responding, " shut up Talia, your just mad it isnt you" the girl who i have come to know as lacey said " i'm sorry, she has a crush on Shawn, so she thinks your stealing him, she's a bitch" Lacey whispered to me " so why do you hang out with her?" i asked " shes my step cousin, my uncle married her aunt and i have to show her around, im sorry, " she said " its ok. D'M me sometime, k?" i said before they walked away. " So you talk about me in all of your videos?" Shawn said with a creepy grin. " No, i just mention you every once in a while to show my appreciation for your songs that's all" i lied " mhm, " he said " im hungry" i said with pouted lips

" ok, where do you wanna go, Olive Garden, red Lobster?" he asked " McDonald's, i could kill for some fries" i said as i pointed to the fast food chain behind him.

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i fell onto my bed with a thump, reminiscing the details of our ' non date ' " tell me everything" Darcy said and i smiled, thinking about when we were walking through this park and an old couple stopped us and told us to never lose this.

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" so, tell me about you, your favorite color or something " he said as he held my hand and we walked through the park, as we walked i was looking around, my eyes stopped on this couple, it was a black women and a white man she looked at us and smiled, he followed her gaze, they both held happy smiles. The man waved his hand in a come here gesture, Shawn and i walked over to the bench they were sitting on and stood in front of them. " you two may not care about what we have to say but may i say that you two are a beautiful couple, and the way that you look at each other reminds me of the way we used to look at each other, and your lucky, because this is a simpler time, it took a while before we could publicly show our affection for each other and couples like you make us happy" the women said, Shawn and i decided to go along with it " thank you" he said " no. thank you, and there are going to be people in this world that disapprove of you and you just have to brush them off

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" all i can say is that it was amazing, but what about you ? i saw you and Mr. Dallas. and may i say that you guys were kinda flirty when we got back" I said, remembering how she was hugged up on Cam and how they got awfully close in those 4 hours " oh, us we're just friends, its not like we kissed or anything " she said, referring to Shawn and I " true" i said, deciding not to argue. We heard a loud Shattering noise coming from down stairs and we both groaned hearing the conversation that came after it " y-you, fuck you, you destroyed me" she slurred " Deborah, you don't know what your talking about, you fucked up years ago, i've been trying to keep us together" he said in a hushed tone " No, it was you. you wanted her. You chose her over me" she said." we wanted this, and i don't regret any of it, and if that's how you feel then you can leave" My father said to her, I wonder who they are talking about " you're choosing that bitch over me, if it wasn't for me she wouldn't even be here, i made her, i should have aborted her the day i found out " she said, causing me to gasp in horror, my own mother, (not that she has been much of that in the past few years) thought about killing me, terminating my existence before i even qualified as an person " you know what, i have been trying to make this marriage work for years,but you. you keep fucking it up, first you cheated on me multiple times, you had doubts that she was even mine hell the boy isn't even mine, but i still treat him like my own, but my princess, you couldn't even tell me if she was mine, and you killed my baby. you lied straight in my face but i took you back, after all the shit you put me through and you will not talk about my daughter like that, either you leave or get your shit together" he said before i heard feet pattering and a door slam down the hall.