I Fell In Love With My Step Brother (Harry Styles)

Chapter 32

Harry's POV

The world around me, the haze called my life slowly starts to fade and darken. I don't eat, sleep, talk, move, or blink. I just think as I stare at the wall of my bedroom. My mind flashes with recent memories of Callie. She is all I think about. Every memory I have has her in it. Its like a kaleidoscope of memories and it will never leave. It all comes to me in a rush, yet Callie never does. My body starts to crumble. I don't care that real men don't cry. Tears flow down my cheeks as my knees hit the floor. My heart feels like it has been torn in two, shoved in a blender and returned to my chest, scarred, broken. I feel empty. Except for the pain. Its a reminder that everything is really happening. It reminds me of how week I am. My father didn't want me, why should Callie? She shouldn't. I am pathetic, alone, useless. A memory starts again. I try to push it away but it comes anyway. (TWSS)

FLASHBACK

I hand Eleanor the piece of paper in my hands. I need advice on this one.

" Harry," She says after reading it. " This is amazing."

" Really? You think its okay?" I ask with hope.

" Yes, even I love it." She giggles at my shocked yet hopeful expression.

"Good. Because I really don't know if girls like these thing. If you like, then Callie should too. So I am glad you liked it." I say.

"So, what are you planning on, well I guess how are you planning to say it? I already know what you will say. But how?" Eleanor asks me holding up the paper. I take it from her and read, imagining Callie is with me, listening.

" Well, I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You mean the world to me. No one else matters. My love is your love, my air is your air, your life is my life. I will never let you go." I say. That sounds okay right? Callie will love it I hope. That's why I got Eleanor's opinion.

" Aw!" Eleanor sings. I smile. Callie will love it. And its all true so-

I am brought out of my thoughts when I hear a thud from the hallway. I walk out and see Callie on her butt. I smile. My clumsy little Callie.

" Hey Callie." I say still smiling. I hear my mom walk to the kitchen. She sets lunch out and everyone walks to the kitchen, everyone but Callie, me, and Eleanor- who just walked out.

" So, what am I to you? Huh? Just some scared little girl with a messed up life? Did you think you could just use me? Take advantage of me because I didn't have a family? Because I fell for you too hard too fast? Is that it? Did you ever freaking CARE?" Callie whisper-yells at me. I am stunned. What?

" What are you talking about? I love you Callie," I try to pull her face to mine, but she jerks away and stares at me venomously.

" Oh, really? Is that why I just heard you admit your undying affection and LOVE for Eleanor? Yeah, explain that, Harold." She spats. She used my full name. No Har, not even Harry.

"No Callie," I say. Then it all crashes down. She hears what I said. She thinks I was saying it to Eleanor but it was for Callie- herself!  "You have it all wrong. Its not what it looks like, baby."

" Oh save it. This isn't some romantic movie where you can use stupid lines like 'its not you its me', and 'its not what it looks like'. I cant hear your excuses. You are a cheater and you know it!" She shouts at me. I know everyone is watching.

 "Callie, I am not cheating. I love you. I was not saying those things to Eleanor. I was-" She cuts me off.

" You were what? Huh? Saying them to yourself in the mirror? Huh? Saying them to your mother? Is that it? Oh yeah. Perfectly acceptable." She pushes me in the chest before rolling her eyes and walks to the kitchen. I see her shoulders slump as she picks her keys up.

" The wedding is off," She declares before walking out. My mom turns to me, red-faced.

" WHAT DID YOU DO HAROLD EDWARD STYLES?!"

END OF FLASHBACK

After that I dropped to the floor and sobbed. Louis and Gemma helped me up to my room so I could rest. But I didn't rest. I stayed sitting up. Now I am on the floor. I don't even make a noise at the pain in my shoulder as it hits the ground. Who cares? That pain is nowhere as close to the pain in my heart.

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Callie's POV

I sit in the hotel room I managed to get for cheap. I have cried my eyes out for the past two days since I left. My heart hurts, like being run over by a lawn mower and thrown into an ocean of hand sanitizer, salty water, and alcohol. It burns, it aches. My body doesn't function. I made it to the hotel room before completely collapsing. I don't care that the bed is like sleeping on a rock. I don't sleep anyways. I just stare. I think of HIM all day. The sweet memories. Then I wonder why he would go through so much trouble to make me fall for him if he was just going to drop me for Louis' ex. Why was I not good enough? My mom left. She thought I could survive on my own. Hah! Big mistake there Coleen Shaw! My dad left me. he abused me and cheated then went to jail. Now Harry doesn't want me. I should have known it was all a freaking joke. Who would want me? I am boring ol Callie. Only had two boyfriends, a few friends. I was never good enough for anyone. Why am I still here? I am of no use to this world. I manage to my arms and grab one of the many Vodka bottles by my bed. I have finished a bottle off already in the past ten minutes. If I die, so what? I take another long swig and finish off the second bottle. I open the third. What am I doing? I don't even know. I just hate the pain. It reminds me of how week I am. Yet I love it. It reminds me that this is real. I take a few swigs from the drink before setting it back own. I fall backwards on the bed without warning. I close my eyes as my head spins like a merry go round. My ears throb. I take a few more sips of the vodka. Well, this is peaceful at least. I can move. I pull off my shoes and slip on my jacket. I grab the bottle and finish it off. I don't even make it back to the bed before falling. My vision fades to black and my body crumbles to the floor. I hear a man talking, sort of.

" Room service," It sounds wobbly and I cant see. I lay helpless on the ground. I hear more talking, panicked voices. I then hear a siren and I let darkness surround me.