Firstly, I don't like reading or writing but BTS made me do it. I was in my fangirl era when I started reading fan fiction on Youtube. I was maybe 12 or 13 by then. At first, I was satisfied with the story at nakaka-addict rin pero ng tumagal ay parang nasawa na ako sa pabalik-balik na plot at scenes, hanggang sa na naisipan ko na gumawa ng fanfiction para sa kanila. That time also, I already know and discover wattpad by the influence of my cousin ( it's always the cousin talaga, ) pero hindi pa rin ako pumapasok ng wattpad, until when I felt unsatisfied in the plot sa yt fanfics. I started reading first in wattpad about BTS fanfiction. It was okay, but it did not leave me any satisfaction so I decided to write my own imagination. It's fun but also frustrating. I want to finish my story but random plots keep popping in my head that I don't know what to write first.
I kept writing fan-fiction for 1 year siguro? 2019 siguro iyon. Pero ng dumating ang 2020, specifically the pandemic era. I lost my interest in BTS, although I'm still writing but that time, I'm writing in different genres. Horror, Thriller, Romance, Erotica, Teen-Fiction etc. And all I can say again, it's super frustrating. Lalo na kapag nakikita ko ang mga kapwa ko writer na nakapagtapos ng story, I envied them. Gusto ko rin makatapos ng story. I wrote different stories with the hope to finish it but unfortunately, I didn't finish one of them. I was a frustrated writer back then. All I want to achieve is to finish my novels, get reads and votes for my stories, and have a consistent reader. Mahirap, ilang buwan akong tinatamad, writer's block at ilang buwan rin akong nag-hiatus at napag-isipan na hindi na ako magsusulat. But yeah, I kept coming back to my comfort zone, which is writing. It helps me now ease the frustration and stress I felt from school and it made me finish some of my planned novels. Which is Trouble With The Heir, especially Fooling In love in which in this story I pour out my frustration.
In the first place, I knew writing is not easy but I kept doing it because I can not leave my comfort zone. It is the only thing that can make me feel at ease, can somehow mitigate my thoughts, my feelings, and my pain. Having a writing journey can make me realize some things. Patiently wait for your turn, trust God's timing and focus on your baby step process because if you keep yourself distracted by your fellow author's achievement. You can not get anything, but envy and self pity that can lead you to self discouragement and the inability to stop writing.
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