Fated

11- Guilty

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I glare at phi mile when i see him in bobo room. I dont have so much time when i work and now i have a time and chance to visit bobo, i definitely will use it to the fullest. I am ready to fight with him. I am greatful when he just walk away and leave us alone.

I touch bobo forehead and he is getting better. I wait for him to wake up. He like a beautiful angel when he open his eyes and smile to me. I kiss his nose eyes and cheek.. papa he suddenly call me and make me stop kissing.. papa he call me again and smile.. i felt happy but wrong at the same time. I cant agree to this without his daddy permission. Grandpa said i can call you papa bobo cheerefully said. I am happy bobo but you have to ask daddy first. We dont want daddy angry with us right i slowly talk to bobo.
Lets go he hurrily get up and try to get down from his bed. Wait baby i hold him and he look at me.. its late now, lets take a bath.. do you need help i ask this clever 3 years old boy. He hurrily nod and hug me. Lets go i said and and i can see the maid already prepare and waiting for him. I will help i announce and all of the nanny smile and nod happily.

Now we walk to the hall hand in hand.
Bobo suddenly run to p mile and kiss p mile like how i kiss him.  P mile look shock and slowly ask. Are you feeling better. Bobo nod and said, Daddy i kiss you like papa kiss me. P mile again shock and look at me. Sorry he said. He must think that i dont felt comfortable.  Daddy can i call uncle b papa, grandpa said he is my papa bobo ask for his daddy permission. P mile look guilty and carefully answer to his son request. Bobo you need to ask uncle b, you should ask his permission first.  Daddy dont get angry so i can call you papa.  Bobo said happily and look at me. I just nod and smile ackwardly.  You can reject if you want p mile said sincerely. Its ok i said and look at his eyes.  Really he said with a smile. I nod and sit oposite of them. Bobo immediately get down from his daddy and climb on my lap. I happily hug him and wait for grandpa for dinner.  I am happy bobo is getting better. I felt really very sad when i think of tomorrow departure. I will talk to bobo tonight that i only have tonight to acompany him. I need to go back as soon as posible. Its 20hr journey so i really need to fly back early next day. I already book the ticket. I just need to skip practice for one day and back to my schedule. Its crazy for me to join this trip but it worth it.
Phi, can someone drop me to the airport i ask . He look at me with query. Why? He ask. I need to go back with early flight tomorrow. I have my schedule i said. No need we will go back together this friday he casually said. No i cant, i have schedule i counter back. Dont worry, i already arrange on that he said and stand up when his grandpa slowly walk down the stairs.
Wait, i dont agree to that i said and walk to him try to protest.. papa bobo suddenly hug my legs and look at me cutely. I caress his hair. Phi i call him again but he just ignore me and help his grandpa.  Whats wrong brighty grandpa ask. Nothing grandpa i reply and walk with bobo to dining room.  I sit across phi mile because i dont want to be feed by him while feeding bobo. I glare at him when he try to talk to me. He nearly laugh when bobo also glare at him when he try to talk to him. Suddenly grandpha laugh hard and all of us look at him. Bobo you are photocopy of your papa he said and continue laughing. I felt my face blushing and smile ackwardly.

Its late now, lets go i said to bobo and he softly hug me and i carry him to his room. Lets me carry him phi mile said. I look at him and back to ignore him. I need bobo to sleep fast before i confront his daddy. Phi mile patiently wait at the couch while i slowly sing for his son.
We need to talk i said and leave bobo after his sleep. I make sure his nanny are ready for him before get into our room.
I need to go home tomorrow. I have my schedule i try to make phi mile understand. I dont have the privillage for long vocation i said again and look at him angrily. I know, that why i already arrange and reschedule your job, dont worry. I cant make you too tired he said like nothing wrong. You cant, i told you before,  dont get involve in my life, you are not allow i said firmly. He look a bit sad but still calm. Everything has been adjust, you cant do anything now, its just your concert practice and studio recording phi mile said.
I have my own plan. I can go home tomorrow and skip only one practice. You make it hard for the team i nearly scream. I dont want to be a topic again i said. No one will talk, you are my husband i will make sure no one will talk he said confidently.  I dont want anything from you, just leave me alone i finally said and  get into bathroom. It will be bad if we keep arguing. He is like hitler, no space or chance for me to contradic his action. Even i am extremely angry he keep calm like nothing happen.  I know i am being rude but he keep crossing the line that we agreed before.
After calm down, i open the door and look for phi mile but he is no where to be seen.  I felt a bit guilty but i really hope he can discuss with me before make any decision that involve myself.