Fated

30 - The truth

Mile

What wrong i ask him when my husband look so sad and silent when we get into my room which is opposite of his and win room. He just look down and silently cry. Come here i said and pull him to sit on my lap. Are you scare i ask him. He look at me and nod. Dont worry, win must have inform you that i am from most powerful family here. I wont let anything happen to you, just enjoy your life like usual I said. Why they want to hurt me he ask. I  know he wont let this go before he get the answer. Its a long story, both are most powerful family who are in silent war for along time even before current genaration. Its become worst till their daughter suicide because i reject her. She is tough girl. I try to refuse her kindly at first but growing as princess in dark world she cant accept rejection and become obses with me. That why i need you to stay away from bible i said. Why he ask me. He is the heir of the other family. The girl is his favorite sister i explain to my husband. No, he will not hurt me, he is very nice. There must be misunderstand he quickly said. It ok if you dont believe me, but you can ask him, it him who shoot me, i am sure it was his doing i said. No he wont do that he said and leave me, he cannot accept the truth.

I let him to calm down and wait for him quietly. I already ask for room service.
He still sitting down at balcony with so much in his mind. Sometime i felt sorry for him to face all this but one thing for sure i am not regreting marry him. Lets eat i call him. He look at me and slowly said. Can i see phi bible after this trip.  No you cant, its dangerous i reply quickly. Please phi, i need clear answer i plead phi mile. You know that i will see him no matter what, so you need to be prepare or i will see him without your knowledge he said firmly. I know he is stubborn and will do what he want.  Can you please dont i ask him slowly. I am sorry i cant, i will go with your protection or without your protection, u cant choose he said and look into my eyes. I finally chuckle lookibg at his determination. Ok lets eat first i said. No he said. Of course he will use his favorite weapon hunger strike. I finally cant hold and laugh. Ok, you can but with a lot of protocol i said and he start to smile. I promise i will follow all the protocol he said start moving to our food table.
Phi this so delicious he said and start enjoy his food.  i know he still worry. He just try to make me feel comfortable.

After dinner i let him rest on our bed because he will have his rehersal tomorrow morning while i sit on sofa and start checking on my email. After a while i look at him who look umcomfortable. You should sleep i said. He look at me but he did not say anything. Do you want to say something i ask him. He look at me and did not response. You cant sleep i ask again. He nod and look at me again. Come here i call him and he immediately come and put his head on my lap. Phi he call me softly. Is it ok if i ask about bobo's mother. That really get me, i am not ready for this discussion but i know i cant avoid it forever. What do you want to know i ask my husband. Is she victim of family feud he ask. No, she is not, she pass away because of cancer. She was dignose with cancer stage 4 when she is 4 month pregnant. After we know her situation i beg her to let go of bobo to proceed with medication. But she who are strong women cry for the first time begging me to save her son. She is willing to leave me if i force him to abort our child. She live with positive attitude untill her doctor said they never see someone who strong like her.  I start having hope that everything will be okay after the delivery. It was a successful operation and she happily live with her son but only for 7 days. On her last day he beg me to move on and love her son. She said bobo is her last gift. Till her last breath, she never show her pain and tears. She always smile and love us with all her heart. She make me promise to not sad for a long time. The most regretful thing i have is not marry her. I propose to her after her dignose but she choose our baby and refuse my proposal. Its takes three years for me stand on my feet again. During that dark moment, i try to do everything to show my loyalty include act in BL genre. My main purpose is to let the world confuse with my preference. Its help me a lot when a lot of parent stop pushing their daughter on my feet. Since i never fall for a man before i consider myself as a straight man until i found you. For the first time i felt that man can be cute too i told him the truth. That the reason why i propose for contract marriage because i dont want to fall in love again. I dont want to betray her. I never thought i wil fall for a man.  I already decide to live with bobo all my life i said and look at him who now crying softly.
I am sorry for being harsh before, i really try my best to not fall in love again. But i really cant lie to myself, i know i felt something with you on the day when you open your eyes when i kidnap you for the first time i continue my story. He suddenly climb on my lap and hug me tightly. I am sorry for your lost phi, she must be amazing woman he try to comfort me. I am sorry that i am not as strong as her he said again. No you are not like her because you are bright my husband not bobo's mother.i said and look at his eyes. I really need him to understand. Do you still love her phi, he ask me. I really dont want to lie. Yes, i am sorry, before i start to explain he cover my mouth with his hand. I will hate myself if you stop loving her because of me. Please dont say sorry he said gently and caress my face.
I really dont understand what my feeling is toward you now phi, but please keep loving her, she play a big part in your life and bobo. We should not forget her sacrifice he add. I am glad she is not hunt down by bad people like me. Maybe  i am too weak he said sadly.
No you are not, its because of me i said and kiss his forehead. I felt like a heavy burden are lifted from my shoulder. I always felt its not fair for him if i keep her at some place in my heart. Thank you baby i said and kiss him again.