How It's Suppose To Be

Rekindle ?

Jennifer: Cyn, Joel is dead he just committed suicide

Cyn: Mom please stop lying *crying hysterically*

I remember dropping the phone and my body went numb I couldn't believe what was happening. My big brother Joel was everything to me. How could he not tell me what was going on. I wanted to hate myself because I wasn't able to answer his the last few calls he made to me because I was in a meeting or something to do with business. After a while I got up, hopped in my infinity and drove to my moms house, considering that she lived 45 minutes away it only took me 5 minutes. When I got there its like everything became reality. There were cops everywhere and I saw a body figure in a body bag being carried on a stretcher into a hearse. I saw my mother on the porch crying in the neighbors arms. I ran over there and it was like we were in competition for who  can cry and scream the loudest. After about 2 hours I went home cause I couldn't take being in the house knowing my brother had just killed himself in there.

When I got home my phone was on the still on the couch blinking like crazy. When I picked it up I saw my close friends had tagged me in pictures with us alone with my brother in it sending there condolences at this point my tears kept rolling. Even fans all over social media was giving me their sympathy and couple people were saying happy birthday along with it. SHIT !, I didn't even realize today I turned 22. It was about 2:12am and I showered and throw on my sweat pants that said "Mrs.Mena" in the back and a plain white V neck shirt and I got in bed and cuddled with my Ariel the mermaid doll that Erica gave me with my blanket on me laying in a fetus position. At this moment I really missed my brother and also I missed Erica cause she would be with me right now holding me and kissing me telling me its gonna be okay unlike that bitch ass insecure boyfriend I got.

Erica

I got up this morning and realize firstly I was single and secondly it was my baby's birthday. Wait, did I just say baby? Whatever I still love her no matter what so I went on IG to see if any recent activities that she had posted until I came across something that was shocking to me. She had more condolences comments that happy birthdays so Im looking at my phone shocked as fucked. Just then king burst into my room and jumped on my bed and said......

King: Mommy, I know you don't wanna talk to Cyn but I wanna at least tell her happy birthday.

Erica: I never said you couldn't talk to her. I know y'all had a bond I would never take that away from you.

 

King: Mommy I miss Cyn really badly. Since you and her broke up she hasn't been answering my calls or facetimes.

Erica: *hugs King* Don't take it personal chubby, she's probably busy. How about we call her now and also chubby uncle jo died.

King: Cyn's brother ?

 

Erica: yes baby

King: We have to call her now ! To see how she's doing

Erica: * I pick up my phone and unlocked it* Siri call My Nova

Cyn

I was startled out of my sleep at 10am and to my surprise it was "My Baby" facetime me. Which was Erica's contact name in my phone. I was really hesitant on answering it but about 7 rings. I was like what the hell I needed her right now and she's the only person that can make me feel better besides my baby boy King. And I felt so bad that I was ignoring his calls. I just didn't wanna talk to him knowing he was with Erica in the same household. And I wasn't ready to answer any of his questions. However on his 8thbirthday in march I did send him a Birthday paragraph sent to him in text to his phone along with a birthday picture post of Him and I on twitter and IG. And I sent him so new Jordan's, an new outfit and 10k chain I thought that was enough until I saw the new PS6 came out that very day and I know King was nagging Erica to buy it for him so I did, I also sent him a card apologizing about everything and that I was sorry about everything. I didn't think he would forgive me but I wanted him to know that I love him and I was still thinking about him everyday. He sleeping on my chest was still my lock screen so I looked at my baby boy everyday and felt bad because I know I was torturing him by not talking to him. I answered my phone and to my surprise it was my king and queen. Although I could see her face but I could see her shoulder so in know she could see me.